This is going to be a hard thing for me this year, This jingling. If jingling is a thing I will be very bad at it. Thinking of sewing a few bells to my clothes.
My beloved sister-in-law passed early Friday morning. She woke up on Thanksgiving and sadly said, "I am still here." Thursday night was the first time I prayed that she would go. Every other night I begged for a miracle. I of course am devastated, for me, for her girls, for her husband and grandkids.
I am trying really hard not to fall into a depression; it is taking everything I can to keep myself up. I know Heidi would not approve of my moping. She was not a person to stay down.
I had a nice Thanksgiving; the food was good. I went with my girlfriend to help her buy shoes on Friday. They had great black Friday sales. Then I had Kelsa for the weekend, as her brother had a hockey tournament out of town. We had a great time together. She always lifts my mood.
Started to pull out Christmas and every room in my house is a disaster. I thought this would help my motivation. Not sure that was the right method. I have made a big, long list hoping that would spur me on, but so far it has been slow going. I could beg for Sissies help but she is really sick of me, and I don't blame her. I am sick of me.
Then I realized it was the first of the month and I need to pay bills. Don't want to do that either. Dang life is hard sometimes. On a good note, all of my Christmas shopping is done! Most has been sent to my eldest daughter's house, so I don't have to lug it down there. That is a blessing. Count your blessings...
I have sewing to do today, and I am grateful for the work and the distraction. I also have a lot of cleaning and dusting to do around the house. I have been very lax in taking care of my house in the last few weeks, months, if you came in you would not see it, but I know it is there. I am starting to name some of my dust bunnies.
I hope all of you are having a better holiday season. I know mine is going to get better. I just know it is... Say prayers my people.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and we will all have a beautiful holiday season. I love Christmas, I love the reason for Christmas, and I am looking forward with a positive heart for this time of year.
Time to pay bills and sew.
Love to all of you who keep me up. What can I do for you?
God is good
Kim
My deep condolences.Virtual hugs. Cindy in the South
ReplyDeleteOh Kim, I know how you feel. December is always a sad month for us due to losses. You are coming up on Joel’s new Birthday. It’s okay to be sad and down. Now having lost another VIP it makes it worse. God I’s with you, let him sustain you during this time. Will be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteMy condolences to you and your family. It is so hard to lose loved ones but especially around the holidays. Sending hugs and love.
ReplyDeleteSending lots of love your way!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. There's no words to really bring comfort but sending resiliency to keep you strong during another difficult December.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like this sweet lady was more than ready to go home. She is resting with God now. I am so sorry for you and your family - remember that we grieve because we loved so much. Prayers for you to see better days.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for the family's loss. It did sound as if your SIL was ready to meet God and Christ. This is trite, but I truly believe that everyone is up their looking down and wishing you peace.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
Oh, I am so sorry about Heidi's passing. I’ll be praying for all of you.
ReplyDeleteThat was me, Belinda, btw.
DeleteI'm so sorry Kim. Death of those we love is compounding in my opinion and you've had a rough 3 years. Be kind to yourself. Allow the grief. Allow the bad day. Allow the sadness. Embrace the memories and the love you had with each of them. Rules on grief are inappropriate. Thank you sweet Kelsa :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry. This is such a hard phase to lose people you are close to, and try to stay positive and not fall into the grief and be unable to come out. Let yourself grieve, but also take care of yourself & make time for the people who love you & can help you. You need both, I'm guessing. Big hugs to you. - Hawaii Planner
ReplyDeleteOh, my dear friend. I am so very sorry about your loss. You have had to carry a heavy cross these past few years. I wish I were there to help. Please know you mean so much to so many, and we are lifting you up in prayer. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteSaying many prayers for you all Kim. So sorry to read about your sister in law.
ReplyDeleteYou need to celebrate the wins Kim - having all your christmas shopping done is a huge win in my book! This is the part I think I dislike the most about Christmas - the shopping for everyone. Take care my friend - sending prayers & hugs. x0x
Kim, I am so sorry you lost your SIL. All losses are sad, butt hose during the holiday season are especially hard. You want to be happy and joyful, but your heart aches. Know I am thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. Sending hugs.
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