Sissie has started the Christmas baking at her house. I am continuing to sew and waste time, which I am good at, let me tell. you. I was able to complete everything on Monday's list except one zipper that I have not completed out of sheer laziness. Also, a strong trait of mine. If you are going to have traits, make sure they are strong, not necessarily good. Kim's life motto. (Embroidering that on a pillow)
I am crying off and on so much lately it is embarrassing. Just trying to get a grip. Taking good buddy out to dinner for her birthday tomorrow along with Sissie and Dan. Then I will pick up Kelsa for the night and a day with Grandma. We will make some cookies.
I was finally able to cut out a chair cover for one of Lil sis's friends. She can't find them to purchase any more. I cut it out of an old drop cloth and my goal is to have it in the mail tomorrow. If it fits, she will send me fabric to duplicate 6 times. It is easy sewing. But I need to get it done before crunch time arrives in February. Which is really right around the corner.
I am hoping Dan brings up my Christmas tree tomorrow and Kelsa and I can also get that decorated.
Sending love to all of you who support me through this mess I call life with profound grief. It sucks!
Kim
I have experienced strange clothes on my children and allowing them to wear what they want. That is a good solution. What is the bizarre model?
ReplyDeleteIt is too bad all this sadness is still with you.
I bought some cookies to cut off a log. Does that count for Christmas cookies?
Linda you need to send address so I can send proper cookies. I mean really?
DeleteI can't begin to tell you how much I love the outfit picture.
ReplyDeleteYou know it is perfectly fine to cry whenever you need to. You owe no explanations to anyone.
And I agree about strong traits. I have procrastination down to a fine art.
I think we need a club with t-shirts
DeleteOh how I love the photo of the mornings dressing. Such fun.
ReplyDeleteCry all you need to, it will help with the feelings of loss. I still cry over the loss of our daughter and that happened 30+ years ago.
God bless.
I feel so bad about your daughter. It is so hard.
DeleteLove that dressed up monkey!
ReplyDeleteYou are most assuredly allowed to grieve, cry and miss your hubster! Don't let anyone tell you that you need to 'get over it' 'get on with it'. Your life plans included his presence not his absence.
Yea for decorating the tree with one of your littles ;-)
I just thought I would be over it by now and I am beginning to realize that I will never truly get over...
Delete(((((Kim))))) Hugs to you. I love the monkey outfit, 😂
ReplyDeleteI know it is so uhm, uhh, cute?
DeleteYears ago I had a friend who was going through a rough divorce. She had two young kids. She was falling apart. I remember saying that a person needs three things to get through life, Faith, Family, and Friends. She had none of the three. And frankly, it showed.
ReplyDeleteI'm going through the roughest thing in my life and I am so thankful to say that I do have all three. People are saying I'm strong. I am not. But my God is. My family - and his - are all checking on me, listening to me, and just all the things I need. And my friends are the best. Long time friends, new friends, church friends. I'm overwhelmed just typing all that out because I know so many people in this world don't have any of it, or enough of it.
All this to say, you are loved. Crying is cathartic. This is taken from Google:
Crying can have many benefits, including:
Releasing feel-good chemicals: Crying releases oxytocin and endorphins, which can help ease physical and emotional pain, and create a sense of calm.
Activating the parasympathetic nervous system: This system promotes relaxation, digestion, and recovery.
Helping you regain physiological balance: Crying can help people regain physiological balance more quickly when they're sad.
Creating connections with others: Crying can be a sign that you're comfortable with being vulnerable and sharing your emotions.
Providing support: If others see you crying, they may realize you are hurting and offer to help.
Being a safety valve: Keeping difficult feelings inside can be bad for your health. Studies have linked repressive coping with a less resilient immune system, cardiovascular disease, hypertension, and mental health conditions.
Providing hope and optimism: Crying can provide responses that can help improve your mood.
Thank you so much. I too realize I am so blessed.
DeleteCrying can be cleansing. I have this Youtube video I turn to when I need a good cry. Of this certain episode of Will and Grace. I normally feel so much better afterward.
ReplyDeleteI will try that.
DeleteMy dear friend, I wish I could pop in and bring some cookies and we could chat. And I would tell you to cry and cry and cry. Because that is ok. And then, I would beg you to teach me to sew a button. Because I can't do even that! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteOh Billie, I love you so. Someday I am going to visit. I want to see your daughter's bridal shop. and you of course.!
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