Merry Christmas( although it is late) to everyone. So much has happened and I really don't know where to start. We had a nice Christmas with my daughters, in-laws and grandson. Grandson is talking so much more and he was so sweet and cute. It was a long drive there and back but well worth it. Our second daughter and her boyfriend broke up after 2 years on the 23rd and that has been difficult. I really like him, but he does not have the same work ethic as my daughter and I really don't know where things stand right now so it is a difficult transition all the way around. The way I figure it if you are over 25 and you have been dating for 2 years there had better be an engagement ring. Daughter #2 is well educated and beautiful and talented. Her boyfriend is 28 no degree, no prospects, finally was bullied into school for an elementary ed degree, has not been able to find a job for 6 months. I would rather my daughter did not have to live my life. I want my girls to have it better than I did and supporting a husband just leads you to resenting them on so many levels. But I still have to say that I really like him, he is kind, thoughtful. Just very unmotivated.
I came down with a very bad chest cold on Monday and did not feel really super all this last week, I just tried not to let it bother me. I know my family dreads it when I am sick, which is a lot so I just tried not to let it show. It was really hard not to sleep all of Christmas eve and Christmas day, I was just just so sick. I mean I was pee my pants sick, if any of you who have had five kids can relate :) Still coughing but not with such gusto. Hubby was asking me what I planned to do tomorrow on our drive home and I about bit his head off. "Do I have to have a plan and get something done every day? Can I just have a day to do nothing?" I think he was shocked. I just want to read a book and sleep and do nothing.
I really cut back this Christmas and no one complained and I plan to cut back even more next Christmas. If I eat one more cookie of piece of fudge I am going to explode. We have just eaten and eaten so much rich food. I got home and the accountant's folio was here. I did not open it as I don't even want to think about taxes until the first of the year. The studio does not open until 6th and I want to relax a little and enjoy my break for a few days. I will still have to sew and earn some money but I just want no real pressure. I need a break.
I think it has been a hard year emotionally for many of my fellow bloggers. So many of you face such incredible challenges and I pray and hope the new year has some healing and peace for all of us. Life is challenging much more for some than for others. I wish I had a magic fairy wand and I could just solve every one's problems including my own, but I can't. All I can do is care and sometimes that seems overwhelming to me. I worry, I worry about Judy(financially and her grief) , and Rhitter ( her strength to stay strong in her convictions to move to a better life) Sluggy, her health and inability to pass up Mr. Potato head dolls(okay she has mastered the second), Lena(her mother's health),now Jane ( I had such sorrow on her last post.) What about Misty? I really miss her and I wonder how is she doing? So many others.
I know this is supposed to be a financial blog and I must say my finances are not what I want them to be, but I can only keep working at them little by little and maybe this year will be better. I really see this more as an emotional blog as I gain more from all of you in your support and humor and I also gain strength from your ability to press on with your problems and sorrows. I am crushed by your suffering and pray fervently that things will get better for all of us.
Out My Window: It is quite warm here and the pets were all happy to see us. I was petting Rucifee our large long haired black and white cat and our dog jumped up on the couch and sat right on top of him. No easy feat but she could not stand not being the center of attention.
I will start to write again tomorrow, I am just a little tired and head achey tonight. i am sure I will feel better after a good nights sleep.
Kim
And we worry about you my dear friend :) It's part of being a family that we get to worry, fret and yell at each other to rest and take a break. I worry about you working to the point of collapsing and I think you need no deserve to take a few days off and rest.
ReplyDeleteI haven't hear anything from mysti either :(
Yes, I am no longer a slave to the Tater heads.....I even sold 5 of them this Christmas season and have 1 left that needs to go! 8-)))
ReplyDeleteHave some nice days off....you have earned them!