Total meltdown last night between mother and hub's I had HAD it.!!!!!!
I know I need to be more patient and forgiving, and loving and Christlike. But I just can't right now. I am a work in progress and my progress is about the speed of Hub's deck building.
I had cut out a strip of lace edging from a $24.99 a yard piece of lace to trim this dance costume that I want out of my shop. I go to get it done Thursday afternoon and no lace piece. I looked and looked as it was just there. Of course mom is messing around in the shop and trying to iron (I have to sneak the pieces back and re iron them), she is trying to pick up scraps and I have asked her many times not to do this until my design work is finished as I may use something or have something set aside for a costume. I know she just wants to help and she is bored and wants to feel useful but she is not. She is in the way and as I have to redo almost everything she does she is really in the way.
So after tearing the shop apart and going through all the garbage, I have to go back to JoAnns and buy another $24.99 piece of fabric for trim that is missing. It isn't even the money it is the time. I screamed at Hub's about her and almost burst a blood vessel. Then I screamed at Mom about Hub's. I should never let myself get this out of control. It is not good for my health. This kind of stress can bring on a flare. Both wrists and hands are bad today. It is my fault for allowing myself to get so upset. Getting angry like that doesn't help. It won't make mom ;less annoying or Hub's faster, it just harms me. I have to work on this.
Got mom to the Chiropractor at 10:15 this morning and did not get home until 12:30. I did do hand sewing while I waited in the office. Then she had to go to the bank. This is where she goes in to get cash and sits at an officers desk and wastes their time and mine having them do things I could do. But she needs the attention of others. I would just go into the bank and get her money but she won't let me as then she can't waste my time. She came out with some BS story about how she my younger brothers child support had not been taken out of her account for the past several months. I immediately corrected her. They took it out in May as I saw the statement, and also $900.00 was sent to catch him up on his power bills as it had been turned off. And also it is only the 14th and the child support does not come out until the 24th. So of course it has not come out this month and did she have the banker go back into June? She was so made at me but I will call her on her BS every time. I take care of her and wait on her hand and foot, but the boys just get money for nothing. By the way is you have bum male relative get a hold of my mom she will send money. Okay, okay I am getting myself worked up.. She is just so cheap and selfish with Lil sis and I and does everything she can to not pay her way, so she can send money to the boys.
Raced home from her appointment as i had clients coming, and a bride. I have so much to do today. Just hemmed 6 pairs of pants and replaced a zipper. Now to finish the costume.
I need a nap.
Have a great and productive day!