Tuesday, still trying to cope

I am telling you the more I know the less I want to, and the more painful this gets.

Thanks for all your well meaning responses it helps, but is also hurts so bad.

There is a go fund me set up under the name Chayla-Zinn Sandberg, to help with the burial of the babies.

My nephew is so bitter and angry right now and who can blame him?

I think the anger is easier  for him to deal with than the death right now and that is a coping mechanism.

Anyway I don't beleive Travis will be able to go back to work for a while and although the funeral expenses have been met could probably use more help.

That is just my feeling.  He is teetering on a very thin edge.

I just can't believe that our family will have 4 graves in the baby cemetery in Missoula.  I am so glad my mother is on the other side because she could not have handled this.

Anyway, what a rotten Thanksgiving week post and I am sorry.  But I am grateful for strong family and love.  It is what is sustaining us right now.

Prayers are powerful things and we need then right now especially for my nephew.  The bodies were to be released yesterday, but the coroner would not let Travis see them yet, then and I do not want him to see them.  But he is insisting and I think it will just make his anger worse.  Please pray for him that he can get through this.

Kim