I drove to D#2's house last Thursday evening and the trip was long and snowy. I had to go very slow, it rained and snowed the whole time. I made it to her townhouse in 3.5 hours normally the trip takes 2. Helped her unpack several boxes and start to get her room organized and then we fell into bed.
We slept in the next morning as my appointment was not until 1:30. We worked some more on her unpacking and then got ready to go into Spokane. I tried to make sure I was drinking plenty of liquids as I knew they were going to do blood work and I didn't want them mining my arms. As we were turning to get up to the hospital D#2 turned left in a double lane and we were involved in a car accident as the other driver of the large pickup wanted our turn lane. So here I am again in Spokane on my way to the specialist and also in an accident. This is the whole reason I can't drive in the big city is that I get into accidents (well one). So we wait and wait and finally the officer let's us go to the hospital and tells us he will meet us there. Which was nice. I was very upset and in shock not hurt but in the kind of shock you are in when you can't believe something has happened again. I felt very bad for D#2 as she took the direct impact on her door and could have been really hurt. She is fine.
Get to the doctor's office 1/2 hour late, they squeezed me in yet again. They also would not let me walk from office to office due to shock. My blood pressure was high for me and my veins collapsed in my arms due to shock. So I now look like a pin cushion, A purple pin cushion. It is funny how your bodies defense goes to work to preserve you when it thinks you are in trouble. I am tough I felt more sorry for the phlebotomy tech who kept poking and blowing and bruising.
I have developed second stage Sjogrens syndrome. My second auto immune disorder. My white blood cells are attacking my salivary glands and tear ducts. Eventually this will destroy these glands. There is no cure. It is very painful, I am hoping I can get some relief from the medications. This is why I am exhausted and why I have no spit, and my eyes are constantly inflamed and full of goop. I drink constantly to keep my mouth from becoming dry. I use eye drops excessively. The biggest problem is that it is causing an inflammatory response in my blood which is setting off the RA. So now a change of meds again and a fight with insurance to cover them and will they work? Also a whole new slew of medicines that are expensive and have side affects of their own. I was tested for another auto immune disorder brought on by all this, which I am loath to believe.
I know several ladies in my church who claim and I did say claim to have fibromyalgia. When there is a job to be done or something unfavorable they are all sick, but when something fun comes along they are all over it. I get tired of the diagnosis given to lazy users. Now I know in my heart that this is a real disease and many people suffer from it. I know it is a serious disease and very painful. I have just seen too many abusers of the word fibromyalgia. So any readers out there please understand where I am coming from and that I am taking your pain or discomfort seriously. Something has happened to my body and it is inflamed. Muscles and tendons around joints are tender to touch. I am tired beyond anything I have ever been before. Like just had a baby 20 minutes ago tired and they want you to get up and go to the bathroom down the hall and you don't think you can make it. It is a weird feeling for someone like me who is always running and active. I DON'T LIKE IT!
Now we have to drive home after a car accident and this wonderful news. Sis and I had a few good jokes as to how we could keep Hub's from seeing the truck and how long we could keep it from him. This is how our family deals with a crisis. Laugh at it live with it.
I needed to drive D#2 back up to her apartment as we were so late because of the accident we could not drive back and get her car and make rehearsal. With only two weeks out till show time we decided to have me drive back up. Not a problem as she wanted me to help put things up in her apartment and I love to stage things. It makes me happy. I needed something to make me happy. Our trip back was the worst snow storm she or I have ever driven in and they closed the highway behind us so it was forward or nothing. Our windshield would ice up and the wiper blades did no good. Every one else was in the same boat. We saw horrible accidents. But we made it and and I don't ever want to be that scared again. I drove home yesterday about noon. It poured rain all the way but the roads were clear. I mean there was at least 6-8 inches of snow you were pushing the night before and now just slews of water and rain. Welcome to winter/spring in the Rockies.
I have still not paid all the bills for February and I need to concentrate on that, I did no house work this weekend and my house needs love. The shop is busy, there is laundry to do and I get to just go on as if nothing is different, because is anything really different? Well I know what is wrong, does that change anything? I am still working this out in my head and will report my feeling later, I just don't want to think right now.
Out My Window: Rainy but I think I might have seen just a glimmer of sun peeking out early this morning for a split second.
Have a great and productive day and I am going to try to also. ( boy do I dangle a lot of participles)