I survived again. Dress rehearsal was a nightmare. I about killed my husband on purpose. It was long, frustrating, riddled with problems that I am sure I could have taken care of before hand. I could have put the house flats inside and cleaned them up. They could have been ready to go. I could have listened more carefully and watched more carefully to opening music and choreography to see that the show flowed better. I didn't. So most of the problems at the rehearsal were tech. The kids dances were great. I channeled every bad director I ever worked with into my sole and was a real witch. I don't blame anyone but myself. I am a stickler for detail and for being ready on time down to the final note. I know there will always be changes and problems but most can be avoided if you really pay attention to the details. I was not ready and I did not pay attention. Now my next question is why?
It is simple. I was tired and I did not care. I really did not. Was the show good? You bet it was. The first run had a few glitches, but the second was great. However I have become the kind of director and business owner that just does not care. I will make sure the basics are covered but I was not going to go crazy and all out, I just can't do it any more. Half done and acceptable is good enough. I have always been an over the top person. That person is tired. Right now I don't even care if I get to the top. If I make it to the edge of the mountain it is okay. I can't believe I think that or that I just wrote that.
The kitchen is coming together. I still have no sink, but I do have a stove and a fridge. Every thing is on hold waiting for the counter tops. So we will punt along until we can get that done. I can start to put things away and clean a little. We can do the dishes in the bath tub or out on the back porch for a while. My plan after church is to come home and start to put liners in drawers and things in cupboards. I am excited to start all the finishing details. It will be a few weeks before it will be done.
In the mean time I have plenty of sewing to do. I have ignored the poor yard for weeks. The house is such a wreck it is scary. My chickens would be dead if it wasn't for my mam and hub's. I just have not had enough hours in the day to get everything done and I am so tired. That is changing.
I am in the process of selling the studio. I am so happy and relieved. The new owner will take possession on September 1st. So I have to get through the summer, and I will. I am still going to have an association with the studio in that I will continue to teach Celtic and over see the advanced ballet program. Which means I will no longer have the day to day running of the business. I will only have to go done once a week and with a helper. I will actually get paid plus the payment on the studio will pay off the debt. I don't think the kids will notice a difference and I have full confidence in the person buying the business.
It is time. I have to get out before I get sloppy and I am starting to get really sloppy. I do not like myself like this. I don't want to do things half baked. Now I can concentrate on the things that are really important. My family, my mom, my sewing business, my health. I am going to be very happy.
Have a beautiful and blessed Sabbath.