Hospice workers were here at 9 a.m. this morning and they were very nice. Mom's condition is such that she doesn't really fit any diagnosis. Medicare is very strict about this and I can see why. As this is a free service they must be careful that it is end of life care. I feel she meets the criteria, but we will see. What I do know is that I am done with the hospital dance. We will see a neurologist and that is the last of the visits. I will give her medication that I feel will make her comfortable and help with her anxiety and pain. If we have to we will hire people to come in and help.
It is obvious to me now that mom is having seizures as when her meds wore off she was able to walk a little, talk although confused. She has a hard time getting words out. Night time is awful as she is up and extremely agitated. But I am through arguing with her and I am going to just do what I think is best.
I had a good friend bring dinner by last night which was lovely. I need to buy groceries and might try and sneak out later today, but the shop will be busy. It was very busy yesterday and I have much to do today. B (D#3) is here until 4 p.m. so that will help. B can come down M-W next week to help and then Lil sis has Sat-Sun. So that leaves me two days to find a care giver. The problem is nights. Even with getting up with mom last night a couple of times I still was able to get almost 7 hours of sleep and I can handle that.
I have a wedding dress to get out today and several other things. I would like to cook something for dinner as I have not cooked since last Wed. I find comfort in those kinds of tasks, silly I know. Cleaning, ironing, cooking, planting, all bring me a sense of peace at this time. I think I will make meatloaves. Cheryl suggested making extra mashed potatoes and freezing in cupcake cups and then rebagging in containers. Mom loves mashed potatoes so I will do this. I get such great ideas from the blogs. Thanks Cheryl, Cheryl's frugal Corner.
Well I am off to get some work done and try to get a bill paid off. Life goes on and we are lucky to live it.
Thank you so much for the comfort wishes and the prayers it really means a lot.
Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.