Okay I know that this is a cold overcast dark month. I am prepared for this. I know it is coming. I try and stay busy and tell myself it is a short month. Everyday brings a few more minutes of sunlight back as the earth chugs its way around the sun. I can do this month. It has birthdays of my eldest daughter and eldest grandson, and Valentines day, I love chocolate. I can do this. But then I find myself tipping into the abyss..... splat.
So what is really bothering me about this month? I think I have nailed the February blues. It is financial. Well with a little sadness thrown in. February is just a dang expensive month around here and every time I turn around another bill pops up. Yesterday it was a serger repair $160.00. Now our taxes are due at the accountant $310.00. I have know idea if we owe that will be the next shoe to fall. We have two trees coming down in the back as we can get a good winter rate from the company that has no work right now. See February is hard on many businesses. Did I know I had to pay the accountant and the tree guy and the machine shop? You bet, but I have no money coming in and I have to use savings which is dwindling before my eyes which causes me to stress out.
Now is it like this every year. YES. I was really proud of myself getting my Aunts check off right at the first of the month so I don't have to worry about that. I thought I had this handled. Well I don't. Money is just not magically appearing when I need it. Where are the fairies in my life? Stuck on the pages of the storybook I guess.
All I can tell myself is that this is my last year of having a scary Financial February, because this sucker of a house will be paid off and I won't have to live so tight. I can do this. I can.
So today I will go pick up the taxes, I will finish up the boxes I need to mail so I can mail those tomorrow. I have plenty of work in the shop, I will have money coming in by Friday. I will be okay. I can stop worrying. By this time next month I will start to get really busy and I can boost my savings again. Right now it is just survive. It is okay.
DO any of you get the financial panics one month of the year? What do you do about it? I find chewing my nails down to the fourth knuckle helps but it does get blood on my sewing.....
Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.