We finished another quilt. Isn't this one lovely? The one problem I see with quilting, okay several problems. It is expensive. Once you finish, what do you do with it? You can only have so many blankets. Now Aunty sells her quilts. I will not be selling quilts. But it is a lot of fun and you feel very accomplished when you are done. Now what do I do with this?
I did nothing I needed to do yesterday. I did finish this quilt, but it was not what I needed to do. I am in a funk. Yet I am not really sad. Just surviving.
I hope I can convince myself to get something done today. Maybe if I make a list. Remember my lists? Way too long to be humanly possible. But that was back in the day when I thought myself invincible. I have learned different.
Okay I will try:
1. take shoulders up in a jumpsuit.
2. hem a pair of pants
3. hem a pair of jeans
4. hem a pair of jeans
5. hem a pair of suit pants
6. remove cuffs from a coat
7. hem a dress and make three bridal garters
Okay that is enough, I think. 10 wedding dresses in shop and I cannot even look at them. Yikes.
Say a prayer for me, I need one.
Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.
Kim
Beautiful quilt! That pattern is not easy so good on you!
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It is pretty exacting.
DeleteBeautiful! If you can't use or keep - maybe a gift to one of the girls or sis's at Christmas time.
ReplyDeleteThat is exactly what I am doing.
DeleteMy grandmother made many, many quilts in her lifetime and I have a ton of them. I love each one. Start making one for everyone in the family. We all cherish them even now.
ReplyDeleteIt is fun but so exspensive.
DeleteNice quilt and they do take a lot of time and money to make. A lost art.
ReplyDeleteFor many reasons many of us are all just surviving…..need to move on and get out of your funk…..only you can do that and continue to move on and have a positive outlook. Change is very difficult but something we all have to deal with daily….
I know and I am not liking it.
DeleteThe quilt is gorgeous! It is ok for you to be in a funk after what you have been through. Everyone has their own timetable well, for everything. One day at a time and if that is too much, one hour at a time. Virtual prayers and hugs. Cindy in the South
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DeleteYour quilt is gorgeous Kim! That purple floral fabric you posted yesterday is beautiful too. I love Lori's idea of making a quilt for family members. You are always in my prayers my friend. Please give yourself some grace. Just take it one day at a time and please don't apologise if you feel down or need to vent etc. We're here for you. Sending you lots of love & hugs xoxo
ReplyDeleteIt is just so hard. Have I said that before?...
DeleteThe quilt is beautiful! If it makes you happy right now, that is what you need to do. Ok maybe a little sewing, just sew what makes the biggest buck for the time in it right now.
ReplyDeleteJust trying to work through the piles. The biggest money is wedding dresses and I am afraid of those right now.
Delete95% of the quilts I make are donated to the local Women's and Children's shelter. Sadly, there is a huge need.
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time. One foot in front of the other. Be kind to yourself.
SO lovely!
DeleteThank you Elle.
DeleteI am praying for you through out my day, every day. I pray for what you need, as I know your wants, to bring Joel back, to turn back the calendar, to not have deleted those voice mails, or texts, or to remove their contact from your phone. You want to remember his voice and are afraid that time will make the sound of him saying I love you in your memories, that your memories of him will become quiet and his voice will fade, the sound of his laughter in your mind that you are hanging onto and know that time will also fade that. I remember the exact day and moment I removed my son-in-laws contact after losing him to cancer. I chose the day, I chose the time, I chose my company, I chose the location, I even chose the music I played in my car the moment I hit delete. Later after using a box of Puffs, I felt better. Now that my vision is less clouded with the daily stress of so many changes coming at me from different directions, I can see more clearly that all I really wanted was to feel... that I had some control, some control over my life, my tears, my grief. That moment brought me some more strength. It was a small moment, a moment not surrounded by critics, well doers, and so on. It was selfish I know, but when life feels so out of control, spinning too fast, and all you really want is for time to stop for a moment. My moment helped me. Maybe you could make one moment per day, and take control of it, choose the time, the place, the company, the subject and just feel it, feel life stop and five back what it took away, if even for that moment. Continued prayers, positive energy, comfort and understanding coming from me to you. ~jackiesee~
ReplyDeleteThank you. I just want to talk to him for a minute. I want to know that he is okay. My soul tells me he is, but my heart just wants some reassurance.
DeleteThat is beautiful. It is one more quilt than I have ever made. I want to make one quilt with wool batting for me as the wool would be warmer and cooler than cotton. Well, as a non-quilter that is my thought. What kind of batting do you use?
ReplyDeleteJust the loft batting.
DeleteThat is so funny and something my family would do. OOPS!
ReplyDeleteIt is just grief. I didn't get to talk to my sister before she died, so I talked to her at the viewing. I sometimes still feel bereft when I think of her eaving me all alone, the only one still alive from my original family unit, Some days I want to demand that she come back, how dare she leave me!! Hugs to you.
ReplyDeletePop's mom made quilts with scraps with worn towels as the batting and a new sheet for the bottom layer. My kids still use them for the end of the bed to keep feet warm even though they are late 30s to early 50s. Amish neighbor told me to use old jeans with only a sheet for the backing as jeans are heavy and need not batting.
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