My plants are getting bigger. Too bad the weather is cold and crappy. Not spring at all. Maybe a blessing as I would want to be outside.
Greif bleeds one day into the next, as I survive. I really don't like existing this way, but I have no choice.
I was proud of what I got done yesterday and I am determined to finish a bit of sewing and then get to a huge pile of alterations.
I am struggling with the blog, as I feel like I have no financial goals to speak of. I don't need to be chasing cheap grocery prices as I am not eating enough to warrant that. Plus, I already have so much food I am not cooking.
I really enjoyed blogging about debt payoff. Not that I want more debt. But I want goals.
I do have $515.00 in my $5 bill savings for Hawaii. That should be plenty for food and fun.
I am saving a penny a day in my can. It has 42.78 in it and I will put in money soon for April. But other than that, it is just the house and once this money situation with the state is resolved, I will attack that with a vengeance.
I am looking forward to something I can attack. I think I will feel less fractured if I have a big goal. At least that is what I am hoping.
It sounds to me like blog land is all suffering from this chest cold crud. How can we live so far apart and then all get the same things.
I have to find out what matters to me for the future and I am so at a loss right now.
Well here we go for today. At least for today I have a plan and maybe that is all I need.
1. finish up hand work on suit and call
2. finish up prom dress and call
3. start little person pile as follows.... alter coat sleeves
4. alter snow pants
5. mend 6 pairs of suit pants
6. alter coat sleeves
7. alter pants
8.alter three shirts
9. alter two pairs of long johns
10. alter 5 more pairs of pants
11. alter a coat
12. alter outdoor hunting coat
13. alter outdoor hunting bibs
I am sure there is more. These are really hard as a little person has a regular body but extremely short limbs. You can't just shorten a pair of pants they have to be tapered and tailored to look normal. So hard. But it must be done. So I do. There is no way I can get all this done today but I will get a start.
Here goes. Wish me luck.
Kim
Fields have to lie fallow every so often so they will be more productive in the future. Maybe this is your fallow time. Grieving is hard work and you can't hurry it up. Just focus on the steps right in front of you for now. You are doing fine, but you should eat a sandwich. xo
ReplyDeleteI just had a yogurt! This is so much harder than I thought it would be.
DeleteImpressed with the alterations you are capable of doing. Hope someday you write a blog post about how you learned that skill.
ReplyDeletetrial and errror!
DeleteI am punny
DeleteI can't imagine how much has to be altered to fit someone with a very small stature. Must be super difficult (and expensive!) for them.
ReplyDeleteI like the routine of blogging. I'm not changing any lives, but I like the accountability, and the element of staying connected. And, reading how other people approach finances is always helpful, even if only bits & pieces are relevant on any given day.
I think that is one of the reasons I like blogging also. I like the accountability.
DeleteWishing you luck with the piles!!!! You will find you passion or your goal or your plan - when the time is right. It has not been that long. You are doing well, and it is great you have your sewing work to keep you busy. Quit beating yourself up!
ReplyDeleteWhat you are feeling is normal. I know that doesn't help - but it is true.
I know, and I don't know why I expect it to be different. I am so impatient.
DeleteI think paying off the house is a great goal! For what it is worth, I did a worksheet that started at our mortgage amount and went to zero at the end of five years. In order for that to happen, I had to do a plug of $10,000 a year (beyond what I said extra we could pay)….and amazingly it happened. Once that was the goal, I found I was hoovering up money from surprising sources. And it felt really good! Big goal and heroic effort. I think you will love it…it is a daunting task indeed and worthy of you! Hilogene in Az
ReplyDeleteBy the way I am still not cooking. Eat out once a day maybe…still eating plenty but mostly ritz and peanut butter and tuna salad. Anyway, I asked around and Cheryl (thank you again) and another person (apologies I forget your name) said it takes six months. So I gave away everything in my chest freezer and most of my pantry. I felt good helping the food bank and knowing someone would eat it. ;). I can tell you, Stu and I were together 41 years and it is not easy to adjust to this new world at all. I wish we had both been hit by a meteor on our motorcycle. Sigh. Hilogene in Az
DeleteThat might be a good Idea for me. Just eat out once a day. But then I am so frugal that is hard for me. I am looking forward to getting on even keel financially. I know what you mean about both going at the same time.
DeleteI agree with the very first comment Kim ... about the fields lying fallow for awhile. Grieving is exhausting. You need to allow yourself time to heal & accept it won't happen in a short time. We are all impatient for things like this. Small steps each day Kim & if it gets too much - then take one hour at a time. You are doing way better than you think I am sure. And don't worry about blogging about budgeting - we are happy just to be hear to listen to you anytime. xx
ReplyDeleteI don't know why I can't accept the time line.
DeleteI agree with Julie's comment.
ReplyDeleteThe people who come to read your blog
are happy to listen. To be here for you through your good days and bad ones.
I know it seems strange that people you've never met could care so much about you. But we do!
So if you need hugs, a shoulder to cry on
Or to scream,we got you!
Thank you so much. That is a comfort to know.
DeleteI’m wishing you the best of luck with your work.. and with your life🥰I’m sure you can do it! Xo, Ricki
ReplyDeleteThanks Ricki
DeleteHugs to you. Kim!
ReplyDeleteThanks Terri
DeleteJust take it an hour at a time at this point, Sistah.
ReplyDeleteBUt, but, but....
DeleteBlogs change over time. Just talk about what you need to talk about. Now your goal is trying to find a "new" normal. Whatever that is.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
Well I was never normal so.....:)
DeleteI agree with every other commenter.
ReplyDeleteSending big hugs,
Debbie
Thanks Deb
Deleteoh Kim, please give yourself a break. You've experienced a very painful change in your life. I think it's remarkable that you are accomplishing so much in your sewing room, stepping through all of the widow change requirements, and writing blog posts. I think you fully deserve being depressed. It's normal with the death of hubs. You're feeling your way through this unwanted change in your life.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you from Boise.
I do not like this one bit. It is hard whine.....
DeleteEveryone else has written what I am thinking too. Hugs and comfort, Kim.
ReplyDeleteThanks April
DeleteI also agree with what everyone else has written here. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThanks Celie
DeleteWhen I am feeling sort of down, I realize I have not eaten. Eating anything helps. Maybe you can write a list of things to eat--banana and milk, apple and peanut butter, cheese sandwich, little salad, things like that that don't require much except sticking it in your mouth. Of course, make a list of your things, maybe a cookie or diet coke. I don't know how long illness will last, but I finally caught covid.
ReplyDeleteThat is why you were so sick, I am sorry, I have been worried about you.
DeleteMaybe set yourself goals that are not finance related. Do something out of the box, start something totally different. It can be something as ridiculous as to go to the movies every week for the next 52 weeks or just something that is a new routine for you.
ReplyDeleteI have never thought about that.
DeleteI have no advice except to say I agree with everyone else, give yourself some grace for as long as it takes. Virtual hugs. Cindy in the South
ReplyDeleteTHanks Cidy!
DeleteDaddy ate out for 3 yrs once a day. Would split his meal in half and eat the leftovers the next day. Otherwise it was a thin slice of bologna sandwich with mustard, 3 Aldi fig newtons and a cup of coffee for lunch. Bfat always was a serving (yes he measured so he would get his money's worth) of Aldi raisin bran, 1/2 banana with1 cup of milk on it (drink the milk afterwards) and a cup of coffee. EVERY DAY.
ReplyDeleteGoals are good. His goal was to out live his money. He did that
That is a cute memory.
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