I swear today I will get something done. I have gotten in the habit of putzing. I can blame it on mom, depression, lack of enough work, laziness, sad events on TV, the weather,debt, worry, bills, lack of sleep, illness. It only took me about 15 seconds to come up with that list. I am really good at making excuses for my lack of productivity. Unfortunately when you don't get things done you just fall deeper into the mire that created your problems in the first place.
When you don't do the work available to you you don't get paid. When you putz around getting nothing done, soon it is dinner time and you want to go out or order in. When you have a case of the lazy's (my own word) dishes pile up, beds go unmade, clutter abounds and you find yourself wanting to escape your surroundings. This leads to debt for me. I want to go shopping even if it is groceries I don't need anything to escape what I really need to be doing. I want to treat myself to get out of my slump.
I can use any excuse to not do what I really need to do and this is such a bad habit of mine. I let little things get to me, I also let big things get to me. Today I received a bill from the dentist for $196.00. I don't know why I did not know this, but I some times out my head in the sand. I thought I had dental coverage and I don't. That is a separate policy with the State and I will not pay it as it is an extra $37.00 a month. If I take care of my teeth and have them cleaned once a year I can pay for a cleaning. Now I could let this dilemma throw me into the couch for the day. I could rant and rail and yell and say no matter how hard I work something always comes to take my hard earned money. Actually this is true, but is it going to change? Probably not.
I/we will always fight most of the things listed above. The funny thing is, that the more I learn about control and frugality, the less these bad habits derail me. I recognize my faults and I say where is this coming from? Usually it boils down to my just letting my spoiled nature take over. My inner brat comes out to party. She loves to party and always leaves a trail of crap in her wake. Un paid bills, charge card receipts,a dirty house, piles of laundry, clothes and clutter I don't need. Trying to control her is hard. I am learning.
I am going to get a firm grip in the brat. Nuf said. Let's get to work.
Have a great and productive day, staying positive while in the negative.