Oh my, Sorry for the long break, but I think I am back. I am way too over stressed and busy.
I have a serious case of I don't want to's If that is such a thing.
It is prom season and wedding dresses are haunting me, but at least I have May. I am now turning down work for the next two weeks and even told a wedding dress redo (done by another shop) that I could not do her dress. Sorry I just can't redo someone else's bad job.
Had a wonderful time in Hawaii. I can truly see why they call it Paradise. I need to download some pictures.
Has anything serious happened in blog land as I need to know and have no real time to go back and read blogs? Please enlighten me in the comments.
I am still really struggling with severe grief which I thought I would be over by now. It paralyzes me and I hate it. I know, I know I am not supposed to hate, but I do.
I wish I could be more like my old self, but I have not found her yet. I still have my wicked sense of humor.
I met Santa on the beach. I sunburned my forehead and it is now peeling so it just looks like I am dirty. Hawaii is expensive. I mean really, really expensive. When I go again, I will stick to the north shore, much less touristy and less junk.
But I am grateful for the trip it was very distracting and gave me something to look forward to, then I have to come home to the sewing shop from hell.
Well, I have a very full plate today so I am off, hopefully I will be more up tomorrow!
Kim
Oh my goodness. You are back! It is nice to hear from you. I have no idea to tell you anything about your grief or your shop. Just keep your head down or not. I do know it is hard to sew when distracted.
ReplyDeleteI think that is the thing that bugs me the most is the distraction of grief.
DeleteHawaii looked amazing! What a great break and welcome back.
ReplyDeleteWelcome home! We went to Hawaii for our 25th anniversary (Oahu only). We got such a huge discount on our hotel (one of my husband's clients) that we didn't care how much we spent on everything else!
ReplyDeleteMy advice on your workload (keep in mind I can't sew and have never owned my own business): start your day (or week) with the worst thing you have to do (which I feel like you then always say "that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be"), and then everything else will feel easy in comparison.
Well I do have this one wedding dress....
DeleteWelcome Home Kim. Looks like a most wonderful time had by you all. Just what you needed I think. My eldest son went to Hawaii & he said it was expensive too.
ReplyDeleteJust do one thing at a time in the sewing room - set your timer if need be. You will get there in the end. I have orders to do & I am procrastinating & I am off to see my Mum in a few days again. Take care Kim - thinking of you x0x
Thank you Julie, I wish I could procrastinate
DeleteHi, welcome back and I am happy you had a great trip! I have changed planes in Hawaii but never set foot out of the terminal. Very sad indeed. Blog wise I think it was quiet. Lots of farming, planting, etc etc, none of which I do. I did decide on a five day vacation trip next week. Sold my house, moving to a condo this month. So I have movers coming Saturday to put the stuff I am keeping in storage…the estate sale folks come by Sunday through the following Saturday to stage and then sell my extra stuff. Can’t wait, I really am enjoying getting rid of stuff! So while the house is doing the estate sale stuff, I put myself into a nice hotel and Spa and am having a small vacation! Yeah! Not Hawaii but still expensive ;). Bucket list item for me. Anyway, I am so glad you are back and well. Maybe not the old you, but still you are back! Hilogene in Az.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Hilogene. I am jealous, I just want to run away from this mess and I can't!
DeleteI am glad you had a good time with family in Hawaii. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteCindy in the South
Thanks, Cindy
DeleteWelcome back, we’ve missed you! Looks like Hawaii was wonderful! About grief- I don’t think there’s a time limit… I’ve always heard the first year is the hardest, and I can imagine that’s true. Sends you lots of hugs and good wishes ❤️ Ricki in NY
ReplyDeleteTHank you, I am just surviving.
DeleteHow lovely to see a post from you. I am glad that you had a lovely time on your vacation. Grief takes as long as it needs to.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
THanks Jackie.
DeleteWelcome back, Kim. Your heart has its own timetable; go easy on yourself.
ReplyDeleteI know, thanks April you mean so much to me.
DeleteOh Dear Kim.....it has been not even 6 months. Adjusting through grief of a lifetime together takes time. Be kind to yourself and let your feelings AND your anger/frustration happen. In your own time, you will get through. Meanwhile, here's a huge HUG for you.
ReplyDeleteHawaii is indeed expensive. I'm glad you had some good times there. Good for the soul time with family and Santa ;-)
It was indeed lovely.
DeleteSo happy to see you back. Glad you had a nice time.
ReplyDeleteGrief can be fleeting or long - it hits in waves and whenever it feels. I am so sorry you are going through all this. Loss is the hardest thing to go through - I totally understand that. Huge hugs and many smiles that you are back and we know where to find you!!!!
Don't over do it, and try to have a good week.
Thank you Cheryl.
DeleteI'm glad you had a nice time in Hawaii. Our nephew lives there and yes, VERY expensive. Grief is different for everyone. Just take it day by day. That's all anyone can really do. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Lori
DeleteI'm glad Hawaii was a wonderful escape. My day is cry, work, try to engage with the world, cry, try to sleep. I want to run away, but alas, not happening. You are right to treat yourself well and turn away work that just adds stress. Thinking about you,, Hilogene, Siobhan, Val and all who shouldn't be dealing with this stuff alone - not yet.
ReplyDeleteI think about you always. Even my girls ask about you regularly which I think is so cute as they only know you through me, but they share this love and concern for you. It shows that we are all truly connected to each other through a sisterhood of love.
DeleteLast time we went to Hawaii was in 1968 for my hubby's R&R (he was a Marine in Viet Nam). It was beautiful. Tied to so many emotions. Not sure we will be going back...we are now 75 and 79.
ReplyDeleteNice that you could have a mini distraction from your grief. It has to be so hard...
It was lovely
DeleteWelcome home, Kim! I'm in Month 3 of technology issues. My system is temporarily cobbled together, so internet time is limited.
ReplyDeleteGlad you are saying no to some sewing requests. Your time is valuable and it's nice to be able to focus on more profitable and enjoyable work. I really enjoyed your post mentioning the alterations you do for little people. They are fortunate that you understand what needs to be done and care to do it well!
Grief is an odd thing. It affects everyone differently. In my case, it was take care of everything necessary, then fall apart in private (just my personality). Rinse and repeat for several months. It eased slowly over about a year, but returned painfully, thankfully occasionally, over about three years. Many years later, still have the occasional moment of sadness that the life of a good man ended far too soon, but mostly I am thankful to have wonderful memories of our time together.
It takes time. Your heart will guide you.
...Taja 🏜️
Thank you I keep thinking I need to buck up and I just can't.
DeleteWelcome back, Kim. We’ve missed you! It’s great to hear from you. My heart goes out to you. Grief has no timeline, so take all the time you need. Nothing fascinating on my blog, just the same old same old.
ReplyDeleteWell the same old makes me happy!
Deletedefinitely was worried about you, so glad you were with the girls. FIRST stop thinking you should be passed grieving. The..." I should be" is part of your problem (you sound so much like my 4 girls). I would strongly suggest a grief counselor (of your faith). Been where you are. It's winter here(northwest Ohio)... we had "summer" like weather in March. April and May are winter so far. I've lost most of the perennial plants we just put in even with using protection. SIGH...
ReplyDeleteDon't over load on wedding and prom... about that time it will be other stuff coming in.
I think you are right but when to find the time....How are you feeling?
DeleteWelcome back!
ReplyDeleteHawaii sounds wonderful! Great picture of you and your daughters, and that high tea looks delicious. Did you have scones with clotted cream? What is clotted cream anyway, it sounds like spoiled milk, but it is sure tasty. ;) And who knew Santa vacationed in Hawaii?
Sending hugs and prayers for comfort.
Thanks Kathy. Clotted cream is the cream that form just before butter it is really good!
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