I am trying to get back to normal (what ever that was), but it is slow going. I am so behind on wedding dresses now as I lost two weeks and I have to really put my nose to the grind stone. Today I have a final fitting and another second fitting, plus a pile of hemming.
We spent the first few days after mom's death cleaning out her room and going through the personal things at my house. I wanted this done while all my sister's were here and also I just needed to have the bad memories erased. I was going to my daughter's for a few days before the funeral and I wanted to come home to an empty slate. Mom was quite the hoarder, or would have been if I had not kept it at bay as much as I could. My twin's husband came and helped my husband move mom's desk and curio cabinets back to Lil sis's basement. Grandchildren will be coming to collect belongings left to them or things they wanted. Of course my twin worked her butt off helping me and Lil sis did the very best she could. Lil sis took mom's death so hard. I really miss mom, but I am so happy she is on the other side with her loved ones. I know she is happy.
So not I have to let you know that the hospital contacted me and they have occupational therapists coming in that need places to rent for 3 months, I agreed to rent out mom's room and it has to be set up again. That is a work in progress. Then because my brain is in a 1/2 fog (let's call it grief brain) I did not realize that there were two different therapists texting me and I agreed to take two. So now I have to figure out where to put all the crap that is crammed into the upstairs bedroom drawers and closet and this house has very limited storage. Ugh! This dilemma does at least allow me to focus on something other than my feelings. Work is a great panacea for anguish.
Financially I am just in limbo and I will continue to limp along until I get my drive back. The wind has been knocked out of my sails a bit.
I have so much to do and here I am putzing around. Kick my butt would you, mom is no longer here to do it!
Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.