This is going to be a hard thing for me this year, This jingling. If jingling is a thing I will be very bad at it. Thinking of sewing a few bells to my clothes.
My beloved sister-in-law passed early Friday morning. She woke up on Thanksgiving and sadly said, "I am still here." Thursday night was the first time I prayed that she would go. Every other night I begged for a miracle. I of course am devastated, for me, for her girls, for her husband and grandkids.
I am trying really hard not to fall into a depression; it is taking everything I can to keep myself up. I know Heidi would not approve of my moping. She was not a person to stay down.
I had a nice Thanksgiving; the food was good. I went with my girlfriend to help her buy shoes on Friday. They had great black Friday sales. Then I had Kelsa for the weekend, as her brother had a hockey tournament out of town. We had a great time together. She always lifts my mood.
Started to pull out Christmas and every room in my house is a disaster. I thought this would help my motivation. Not sure that was the right method. I have made a big, long list hoping that would spur me on, but so far it has been slow going. I could beg for Sissies help but she is really sick of me, and I don't blame her. I am sick of me.
Then I realized it was the first of the month and I need to pay bills. Don't want to do that either. Dang life is hard sometimes. On a good note, all of my Christmas shopping is done! Most has been sent to my eldest daughter's house, so I don't have to lug it down there. That is a blessing. Count your blessings...
I have sewing to do today, and I am grateful for the work and the distraction. I also have a lot of cleaning and dusting to do around the house. I have been very lax in taking care of my house in the last few weeks, months, if you came in you would not see it, but I know it is there. I am starting to name some of my dust bunnies.
I hope all of you are having a better holiday season. I know mine is going to get better. I just know it is... Say prayers my people.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and we will all have a beautiful holiday season. I love Christmas, I love the reason for Christmas, and I am looking forward with a positive heart for this time of year.
Time to pay bills and sew.
Love to all of you who keep me up. What can I do for you?
God is good
Kim
