Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Tuesday, still seeing white.

  I will wedding dress again all day today.  Yippee!  Mom has a dentist appointment but sis will take her.

     Sis and I cleaned a lot in the back yard yesterday.  She really worked at putting the deck back together.  We had a nice dinner and all crashed to bed.  Hub's is being a pain.  Oh now I am dangling participles again.  His world is tore up he is surrounded by women who won't take his sh^&.  Sad life.  So he is bent on making me miserable.  Today he is at the High School working thank the good Lord.

     I am up and clean and the beds are made the dishes are done in the tub.  I have given up on keeping the bathroom floor clean when I am using it as a kitchen.

     Lot's of projects to do around here, when I get the sewing done.  I bought 5 older beat up comb back Windsor chairs at the Good Will. to paint for the dining room.  Lil Sis thinks I am crazy but she has never been poor and broke and had to make do.  I love making do.  It is a challenge.

     Well the sewing shop is calling.

Have a great and productive day!


Monday, May 30, 2016

Monday, Life right now......

     I will wedding dress all day today and I would so rather be cleaning the upstairs.  So I made myself a promise that when I was able to get two more dresses ready for try on I could do something else.

     To add to my stress level my younger sister is here with her really cute, but deaf and untrained older dog.  She is going through some bad personal things and has come home to mother.  There is not much I can do for her but give her a soft place to land.  I am so sad for her.  She has always been so strong and I find it very hard to see her like she is right now.  I wish my twin was here.

     Hub's left Saturday morning to help D#2 move out of their apt.  They have purchased a house in Spokane and will close o the 14th of June.  Then back up to help them move everything into that.   Hub's ended up staying over night, I was ready to go to church but Mom was very sick again.  I think the thought that my younger sister was coming and her problems made mom sick.  So I changed into work clothes and proceeded to clean the downstairs really well and also attack the front room.  I worked hard all day still feel like I am living in a jungle.  I still feel behind.  I am hoping that little sis will at least help with mom and give me more time to get caught up.

     Don't you like the illusion that I will get caught up? Or is it delusion? My reality button is broken.

     Have a beautiful Memorial Day!


Thursday, May 26, 2016

Wednesday/Thursday, Tired of the dirt and mess.

     We have to wait until the 8th for our counter tops and then the plumber comes the next day.  All the cabinet doors are on and they are attaching the hardware.  There is still so much left to do, but at least when I catch up on my sewing. ( which I swear will never happen)  I can put things in cupboards and may be clean up the front room a little.  Can't wait to scrub up the floors upstairs.


     I started to finish a white bridal jacket when mom announced that friends were taking her to the Senior citizens for lunch.  So I stopped to do her hair.  Then Hub's and I having at least and 1.5 hour window to get some things done without mom went to Habitat for humanity to find a new light fixture for the dining room.  It was 1/2 price day.  I found a few things I needed.

1. brand new light fixture for 54.00 now 27.00.  I did not like the globes and found some I did switched them out.  As long as I donated the ones I did not like I was not charged for new globes.

2. solid copper hinges for spice cabinet .50 now .25

3. 4 ft long oak 1x2 for 2.00 now 1.00

    We then went to home depot and bought metallic brushed nickel spray paint to cover the new fixture.  I have at least 50 beautiful crystals off a chandelier at Kristalund( old family place in Sweden)  I will put a few hanging from this.  Crystal is heavy!

     Then I dropped hubby off at High School and I went and got my nails done.  This took 1/2 an hour.  Came home and mom was laying on her bed so I went upstairs and started to go over things with the contractors, I also started to do a little cleaning.  The floor was so dirty that when I washed it I discovered another broken tile.  Thanks goodness.  Then I moved old oak table from dining room into kitchen.  Continued to clean and work upstairs for a while even though I should have been downstairs sewing.  Finally about 3 I went downstairs and mom was madder than a wet cat.  She did not know where I was.  (upstairs)  She did not know when I got home. (1.5 hours ago)  She was in terrible pain from sciatica.  This has been flaring for about 2 weeks now.  I gave her something for pain and when she was feeling a little better what she really wanted to do was go over to Costco and get her pain meds.  I also had to pick up a cake for a baby shower I am hosting this afternoon at the studio.

     So off we go to waste 2 hours of my time when I could have done this errand in 1/2 an hour.  Then we came home and got ready to go to a church supper that happens once a year and is mandatory as we are lectured about something.  Yada, Yada, Yada.  Then home.  Put mom to bed and went upstairs to start bringing in dishes from back porch.  Everything needed to be washed and as I have no kitchen sink this all took place in the  bathroom tub.  So fun.  Hub's helped me and we worked until about 10:30 then collapsed and I went down to finish the bridal jacket.  then to bed.

     Now I am behind again in the sewing room.  Can I blame mom?  No I really could just blame myself.  Still too much to do.  But it will get better.

     I have to get a few things for the shower and go set it up about 3p.m.

     What are you doing today?

Have a great and productive day!


Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Tuesday,I love my mother.

     Repeat above phrase three times.  Took mom and hub's out yesterday with me to get a few things at home depot.  Then spent the next 4 hours looking for mom's purse that she left in a shopping cart.  Really my fault as I should be watching her like a hawk.

     We were able to put everything in the new fridge yesterday now must get old fridge downstairs into garage and swap out with 27 year old second fridge.  Also stove is hooked up.  Still no water.

     Went to studio and watched video of the performance with many of the students.  It was so good and the kids wee great.

     Did not sleep at all last night and I really dislike that.  Don't know what causes it.  Just don't sleep.

     I have to sew today as I got nothing done yesterday but aggravation.

Love my life what can I say.

Oh mom's purse was found untouched by a kind and honest old man.  Thank goodness.

Have a great and productive day!


Monday, May 23, 2016

Monday, beginning my new life?

     So I feel like I am in limbo as I begin the thought process that I will no longer own the studio.  I love the relief I feel. Although I will not really have the whole thing out of my hands until September. 

     I woke up this morning without a terrible headache.  I even went through my closet and drawers and got rid of a big bag of old teaching clothes.  I will keep a few sets as I will be teaching one day a week.  So nice to free up space.

     Mom and I put a few things away in the kitchen.  The place is still a wreck.  It really does not look like we  have done anything to try and clean up.  That is discouraging. 

     Hub's and I went to the high school late last night and picked up the last 10 boxes of costumes that were some how left.  That has never happened before.

     I had a customer come last night from Macy's that was leaving for a job interview early this morning.  He needed a suit altered.  Short little man.  So I spent and hour between 8-9 pm cuffing pants, shortening the sleeves of a dress shirt, and the sleeves of a suit jacket.  He was very grateful.

    Mom hub's and I are going to get a Danish this morning and also make another trip to home depot.  I spend a lot of time there these days.  As it is rainy and cold out I will not be working in the yard for awhile.

     I have bills to pay and a desk to clean off, lot's of sewing.  Life will not be boring just a little less hectic.

     I am so happy.

Have a great and productive day!


Sunday, May 22, 2016

Sunday, I survived!

     I survived again.  Dress rehearsal was a nightmare.  I about killed my husband on purpose.  It was long, frustrating, riddled with problems that I am sure I could have taken care of before hand.  I could have put the house flats inside and cleaned them up.  They could have been ready to go.  I could have listened more carefully and watched more carefully to opening music and choreography to see that the show flowed better.  I didn't.   So most of the problems at the rehearsal were tech.  The kids dances were great.  I channeled every bad director I ever worked with into my sole and was a real witch.  I don't blame anyone but myself. I am a stickler for detail and for being ready on time down to the final note.  I know there will always be changes and problems but most can be avoided if you really pay attention to the details.  I was not ready and I did not pay attention. Now my next question is why?

    It is simple.  I was tired and I did not care.  I really did not.  Was the show good?  You bet it was.  The first run had a few glitches, but the second was great. However I have become the kind of director and business owner that just does not care.   I will make sure the basics are covered but I was not going to go crazy and all out, I just can't do it any more. Half done and acceptable is good enough.  I have always been an over the top person.  That person is tired.  Right now I don't even care if I get to the top.  If I make it to the edge of the mountain it is okay.  I can't believe I think that or that I just wrote that.

    The kitchen is coming together.  I still have no sink, but I do have a stove and a fridge.  Every thing is on hold waiting for the counter tops.  So we will punt along until we can get that done.  I can start to put things away and clean a little.  We can do the dishes in the bath tub or out on the back porch for a while.  My plan after church is to come home and start to put liners in drawers and things in cupboards.  I am excited to start all the finishing details.  It will be a few weeks before it will be done.

     In the mean time I have plenty of sewing to do.  I have ignored the poor yard for weeks.  The house is such a wreck it is scary.  My chickens would be dead if it wasn't for my mam and hub's.  I just have not had enough hours in the day to get everything done and I am so tired.  That is changing.

     I am in the process of selling the studio.  I am so happy and relieved.  The new owner will take possession on September 1st.  So I have to get through the summer, and I will.  I am still going to have an association with the studio in that I will continue to teach Celtic and over see the advanced ballet program.  Which means I will no longer have the day to day running of the business.  I will only have to go done once a week and with a helper.  I will actually get paid plus the payment on the studio will pay off the debt.  I don't think the kids will notice a difference and I have full confidence in the person buying the business.

     It is time.  I have to get out before I get sloppy and I am starting to get really sloppy.  I do not like myself like this.   I don't want to do things half baked.  Now I can concentrate on the things that are really important.  My family, my mom, my sewing business, my health.  I am going to be very happy.

Have a beautiful and blessed Sabbath.


Thursday, May 19, 2016

Thursday, still moving forward.

     So contractors have put in a few cupboards.  I had to hold them firm on design.  I swear things change everyday, but I am pretty easy to work with I think :)  It is such a mess up there I really don't know what is going on most of the time.

     Poor hubs got stuck at the high school yesterday.  He was supposed to come in and check a projector at noon and then realized a load fuse was burned out, so had to fight until 3:30, and then be back at 4.  He called me in a panic, as he had left his light instruction notebook at home  had had nothing to eat and had to be at school until 9 p.m.  So I dashed to Mcd's got a burger a diet coke, grabbed an apple and 3 cookies from home and his beloved notebook dropped them off at the theater on my way to the studio.  He was one tired dude when he got home.

     Yesterday was emotional ups and downs with upcoming changes I hope to implement.  Spent a lot of time on studio things which is to be expected considering we are two days out on the show.   Ballet Mistress is pulling all things to be picked up at about 4:30 and taken to high school to set. Then we will stay and work on it.   

     Our place is such a mess and I am just ignoring it the best I can.  I am going to clean both bedrooms today before I start work in the shop.  Mom seems to be holding up pretty well under the strain.  Maybe even better than me.

     Meeting with my studio cohort for lunch to discuss upcoming (maybe) changes.  Things have been so up in the air that I don't know from day to day what is going to happen and I still am waiting for an ax to fall.

     I am slowly kicking away at the bridesmaid dresses in the shop.  I have 5 more done and today I have to get these stupid cushions sewn up.  I have them finished except for the hand work.  Ugh.

     One day at a time Sweet Jesus.  I mean that with all respect.  I have been praying hard for answers and for insight.  I know that I am sustained and strengthened and that is such a comfort.

I am excited for the show.  I love my kids and can't wait to see them perform.

Have a great and productive day!


Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Wednesday, still in hell...

     I swear contractors crawl around.  Okay I am done with that rant and I am being unfair.  They just went to get more cupboards as they read the plans wrong.:)  I am holding firm.

     All costumes done waiting for shoes, just called they are on their way.  We have one missing costume might have to make it if we can't locate it but I will look tonight.

     Still trying to solidify plans for the show.  Just have the program to do.  I need someone to run lights might make hub's do that.

     I am mentally tired today, which I dislike immensely.  I just have to endure and get through and then I will be fine.  Maybe?

    Had a long talk with ballet  Mistress last night and let her in on changes that will be made that will affect her.  She took them really well, which surprised me.  I think she might be growing up.

     I pumped out 5 bridesmaid dresses yesterday and I need to get 6 cushions covered today and mend jeans, and finish another bridesmaid dress.  This is my last teaching night at the studio until workshops.  Can't believe the end of the season is here already.  I am already missing the kids and I still have a show coming up.


You bet!

Have a great and productive day!


Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Tuesday, Hell week!

  Frustration on how slow I think the kitchen is going.  Snore......  I cannot get my set pieces into the garage until the contractors get the cupboards out.  So that is on hold.   I just think they could move faster.  But I do realize things have to dry and I am impatient.  I am also a worrier.

     Complications at the studio have been rough on me.  Hard decisions had to be made, but I feel good about what I am doing.  So even though things are not perfect I think the outcome will be positive. Working with artists is hard.  We are a flakey bunch and I include myself in that number.  I work harder everyday just to get out the door than most people do.  My (our minds) operate at a different level or speed and not always in normal order.  If you are going to be successful as an Artist you have to control the monkey in your mind and he or she is usually throwing poo all over the place.

     I was able to knock out quite a few costumes yesterday.  We ordered two really pretty chocolate costumes at a closeout price from a reputable dance catalog.  These dancers are really tiny and the costumes came in XXL.  Two of them could have fit into one and still had room.  So I cut them apart and remade two dresses and they turned out beautifully and they love them.  Also had to replace a zipper on a new costume. Made a pattern for licorice costumes (4 of them) and knocked out two. I only have two more licorice whip costumes to finish this morning.  I have some alterations on Gretel's outfit and have to put the woodcutters things together.

     I pulled all the large peasant shirts and several pairs of knickers from the studio.  These all need to be washed and pressed and hung.  Mom is doing that.  She also made all the woodcutter hat's yesterday.  She is very slow now but it is nice to see her busy and excited about still being able to help me.  We used to make 100's of costumes at a time years ago.  Now her sight is so bad she struggles. But she can wash costumes and sort, iron and hang things.  She is in her element bossing me around.

     Mom and I also ran and did a few errands, like go to the bank, pay the studio rent, pay the water bill.  Ran to the studio for a short rehearsal.

     I have plenty of sewing to do in the shop today so I need to get busy.  Can't let the paying work slide.  If you know what I mean.  The shop pays the bills.  

     I wish you guys could have seen my little Candy canes dance yesterday in their new costumes.  I took red basics and sewed stripes at an angle across in white, then put a white ruffle over the top of the bodice, added a red tutu and a sparkly red head bands with white stripes, red and white striped show bows and they were darling and so proud.  Than the blue birds put on their dresses and hair pieces.  It was like a mini recital last night.  These kids work so hard.  My Ballet Mistress does a really good job with them.

Well I am off to the races!

Have a great and productive day!


Monday, May 16, 2016

Monday, Hell week starts!

     You know I plan and I plan and I plan and then things fall apart and crash and then I have to re plan.  It is exhausting but at least my life is not boring.

     Rehearsal on Friday went well in fact too well again. Scary?  Pulled out the 10 year old set Friday and it is damaged but not beyond repair.  We can cover and fix it pretty easily if I could get into my garage, which I can't because it is still full of cup boards.

     We are very sick of eating cheese and cracker, fruit, cold chicken here.  We have explored the two salad bars in town but that is expensive.  Taco time is okay that also gets old.  Maybe we will all lose weight.

  Yesterday after church I came home and cleaned what house I could find amongst the boxes and mess.  I just could not stand it any more.

     It is cold and rainy everyone else in the house is asleep.  Contractors woke me up, I hope something gets done today.

     Hubs worked almost 40 hours last week at school, which was good because he was out of my hair and too tired to complain about the chaos.

     Today I will be working on costume parts. lots of little projects.  I will get mom to help me I think.

Have a great and productive day.


Friday, May 13, 2016

Friday, living the good life:)

     So today we have electrician and plumber and contractors here.  I am going to tear out the remainder of the wallpaper in the kitchen and then see what has to be replaced on our set back drop.

     Mom is still sleeping and I am up early.  I need to go out back and go through things for fridge.  Oh yeah new appliances are coming in today also.  So it will be super chaos but fun.

     Tomorrow is another big rehearsal and I hope to have all costumes out.  So I will be sewing costume parts today.  I will get mom to help me. 

     Have to pay studio rent and also the water bill today in my errands.  Life is a blur. May it stay that way for at least another 10 days.  If I could truly focus I might give up!

     Changes are in the wind and I am looking forward to summer.

Have a great and productive day!


Thursday, May 12, 2016

Thursday, Blah!

     Okay in over load.  I bet you could not have guessed that this was going to happen?  I can do this, I know I can.  First I have to go brush my teeth and fix my hair, so mother thinks I am not suicidal.

     I am delegating studio to dos like crazy to different mom's. I can't delegate the shop.  Mom is driving me crazy but the house is so torn up I think it is very hard on her.

     Hub's is busy at the school most of this week, so that keeps him from having a melt down here.

I have secured ballet teacher's for next year and have worked out a schedule of changes with my tap instructor that she thinks will work well at the studio. I am ready for a change and I am ready for summer vacation.  If I can just hold on.

     One day at a time.

Have a great and productive day!


Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Tuesday, Chaos thy name is Kim

  I am in a Shakespeare mood today, whatever that is.....

    So Hub's illness hit me last night about 3 but actually I am feeling fine right now.   I stayed up late and worked on wedding dresses.  Sent hub's to bed by himself early.  Moving the fridge today that is a pain.  Well not really for me as I only have to move the stuff out and in and that is pretty easy.

Went a grabbed whole lot of stuff for head pieces last night and will have others put them together.

     Must go pick out some stain today also need to sew my little heart out I want to complete at least two wedding dresses today plus other things.

     We were able to get the coda choreographed with the older Celtic girls last night and also the last scene mapped out in counts.  So now we have to cut music.  Well I don't but that will be done soon.

Lot's of irons in the fire,  As usual.

Have a great and productive day!


Monday, May 9, 2016

Monday, yikes, no kitchen!

     I feel like I am forgetting something really important but I can't figure out what it is right now.  There is so much going on that I am afraid it will blow up in my face.  So the next two weeks are going to be crazy. I mean more crazy than usual.

    I hope everyone had a great Mother's Day.  I got to sleep until 11:30 than church, than someone else made my dinner than I came home and took a nap. Watched a movie and then went to bed.  It was a tough day I tell you.

     I have so much to do in the shop, the studio needs costumes and I have to pull the back drop.  I am sure it will have to re refurbished as it is 10 years old.  So I need to make a list of things that need to be done a get them ticked off.

     I was able to get payroll done and the rehearsal on Saturday went pretty well.  Actually it went really well for a rehearsal in the first cut.   I hope that does not bring any bad luck.  I am a firm believer in bad dress rehearsals.

     I had to go outside and make mom's breakfast.  Unplug the pond to plug in the toaster.  Make an English muffin.  Dig through a cooler for orange juice.  I think I will go get her some lunch.

Hub's is quite sick with some kind of intestinal bug, so the master bedroom is torn to shreds.  He was sick all night.  He just went to the store for some meds and backed into a power pole with the truck obviously should not have been driving.  Don't worry just damaged the light he had already damaged hitting mom's car months ago.  We have still not fixed that.  So I have  a real mess here and  I love my life.

    Stay tuned this can't get any better, but it sure can get worse....splat!

Have a great and productive day!


Friday, May 6, 2016

Friday, me loves a Friday.

     Woke up stiff and sore this morning and headachey.  Then realized I had forgotten to take my meds last night.  Funny how quickly the body tells you that you have not given the old thing it's favorite  poison.  But give me an hour I will be right as rain.

   Tomorrow is a big Saturday rehearsal at the studio.  9 to 2  and then I must do a secret shop.  The kitchen and dining room must be completely empty by Monday morning.  So there is a great deal of packing and rearranging to do.

     I did get my quota of sewing done yesterday and also was able to empty the China cabinet.  There is china under every piece of furniture in the front  room.

     I am going to go upstairs and empty the top medicine shelf and two cupboards that just hold baking things that are seldom used, like pie plates and cake pans, Swedish pans, pasta maker, small   mixer etc.

     Then I am going to sew a whole bunch.

Mom and I bought $100.00 worth of groceries last night.  Amazing how expensive things are and we really bought no meat.  Scary.

    I think I have things under control and then I go look at the work remaining and I start to not panic just get weary.  But I know I can do this, one cupboard at a time.  When it is all done I will be so grateful and happy.  Actually I am grateful and happy right now in the process as I never thought it would really happen.

     Must think of something for mother for mother's day.  Hmmmmm.

Have a great and productive day!


Thursday, May 5, 2016

Thursday, what I would love to post.

     I would love to post about a normal day.  How I get up and go through a simple routine, plan my meals, take a long walk,  garden a little, take a bike ride, cook supper, maybe do a little service work then say my prayers and go to bed getting a full 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep only to wake up and repeat the cycle.  Sigh......

      Will this ever happen?   Maybe in my next life.

     Last night after collapsing on the sofa about 10 p.m. Hub's comes in and barks at me.  "Why don't you ever ride your bike anymore?  When are you going to go on another walk?"  I just started to cry.  I don't cry very often, it just makes me feel stuffy and crappy for two days and accomplishes nothing.

     After all I did nothing yesterday, you all know that right?

     Then he proceeded to go upstairs and steam a little wall paper, he is also steaming wallpaper as I type.  I think he knows he screwed up.  I mean really, just how dumb can one person be?  (Sluggy don't answer that question)

     This morning mom was up washing a chopping rhubarb when I came into the kitchen.   Hub's was on the back deck eating oatmeal. We all sat down and agreed how to set up the back deck to make a make shift kitchen.  We need to clear the back patio so contractor can set up a staining tent. We also needed to clear the back deck area where the back door is so there is plenty of room for tools, saws and contractor labor to move and set up.

     So Mr. Dumber than he looks, ( and he looks pretty dumb)  actually helped.  Every thing is moved to its spot.  I just need to get boxes to arrange things in and put things in the shed and in the garage.  I have china covers to clean out the hutch which is going to a relative.  We actually have two make shift cupboards in the back for dishes, and food stuffs.  With the double canning stove a microwave and the gas grill and a dorm fridge we can survive.  What will I do for Mother's day dinner?  Will worry about that later.

     I have a little house work and organizing to do before I start in my sewing room.  I actually finished the dance for my Celtic girls last night.  It is not clean and still very rough but we have several more hours of practice before the show.

    My mother called me Pollyanna.  I do not think I am a Pollyanna.

Do You?

Have a great and productive day!


Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Wednesday,Keeping up my stadards...

     Still trying to keep up the old standards, while I sew, clean, tear apart my kitchen, rip wallpaper off walls, okay a TV spot, get posters ordered, order costume parts and pieces, write a script, order flowers for mother-in-laws birthday, teach dance and finish choreography, all while vacuuming in pearls like Donna Reed.

     I also have to pay bills, do payroll, have not had really any good sleep the past two nights, need to find a way to pack up the kitchen, all while checking my lipstick for smudges.

     Mom and I met with a contractor at Home Depot this morning to pick out flooring.  Going with unfinished stock cabinets which are going to be stained a grey soldier blue.  Refused to pick out a back splash or counters.  We found the tile dirt cheap on a close out and I think we can do the same with the back splash as it is the last thing to go in.

     I have a great deal of antique copper and Flow blue china from Sweden it is all very old and that will be my accents. Trying to save money at every turn.  Under mount sink? No they charge $300.00 more to polish the counter top hole.  I would rather put that money into the new oven I really want.  I wanted a bottom freezer fridge, but found a steal of a deal on a side by side.  For $800.00 less than the bottom freezer so I will save there.  It is so hard and my budget is so small.

     In the mean time we left mom for 4 hours last night to drive to Orophino for a retirement dinner for one of Hub's old colleagues.  Mom had put a dozen eggs on to boil, I knew this but thought nothing of it.  I went into her room and told her we were leaving and would be home around 8 p.m.  Other than running out to a store or doing an errand she is seldom alone.  When we got home you could smell burning into the outside of the garage.  The eggs were still on and had exploded all over the kitchen, pan was burned black and egg all over ceiling, floors, you name it!  At least the kitchen is in remodel stage.  The whole house reeks.  So we are not going to ever leave her while she is cooking again.

     I am so tired.

Have a great and productive day!


Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Tuesday, habits matter to mothers

     Did you know that I am severely depressed?  Just ask my mother and she will tell you all about it.  She has told me all about it.  Don't know how she got this idea, as I am so busy trying to get 100 things done at once.  I have let some of my habits slide the last little while.

     The past two weeks since I came home from eldest daughters house I have been watching a series on Net flix that mother does not approve off.  Yes it is gory and not something I would ever usually watch but I like the story line. This has been an aggravation to her.

     When I came home from daughter's I had a short case of  Vertigo that laid me up for one day and then slowed me down for a few more.  I was careful about how I moved and how I tipped my head.  As in I sat very still when I could find time.  Not much time I will add.

     I did not jump out of bed and immediately get to work running full tilt.  I sort of glided.  I did not do my hair or put on any make-up.  As the day wore on and I was able to keep the dizzy spells at bay I got cleaned up before I went to the studio.

     I also did not work late into the night after dance.  Then we had company this weekend.  It was a busy time.  More people in the house.  Up early cooking, cooking ,cooking.  Mom felt that I should have been more prepared, I should have had a menu. I should have set the table the night before complete with napkins.  I should have known when people were coming over.  I should have, I should have.  I just did not really care.  Not that I was not thrilled to have my company, I just did not think I needed to put out the silver and crystal.  It was a low key thing.

     Sunday afternoon. after cleaning the kitchen and company was all gone, Hubs laid down for a nap and I went down stairs to nap or maybe watch the show mom hates.  I figured she would nap in her room.  Well I was on my second episode when she explodes out of her room with the theory that I am clinically depressed.  (Just what is that anyway?)  I laughed at her which was not the right thing to do.

     These were her reasons.

1.  I was coming downstairs in the morning without my hair and makeup done.
2.  I was watching this horror show in what ever spare time I had which is not much.
3.  I was not working constantly.
4.  I was not getting her doll house on craigslist now!
5.  I had company and she was not the center of my attention.
6.  The list goes on and on and on.

     So yesterday I jumped out of bed and did not leave my room until I was dresses and ready and my room was clean.  Then I went right to the shop without blogging because I had wasted so much time over the weekend not setting the table right or planning menus.

     I am a failure as a daughter.....

Have a great and productive day.

I am going to look up what it means to be clinically depressed.