Sunday, I survived!

     I survived again.  Dress rehearsal was a nightmare.  I about killed my husband on purpose.  It was long, frustrating, riddled with problems that I am sure I could have taken care of before hand.  I could have put the house flats inside and cleaned them up.  They could have been ready to go.  I could have listened more carefully and watched more carefully to opening music and choreography to see that the show flowed better.  I didn't.   So most of the problems at the rehearsal were tech.  The kids dances were great.  I channeled every bad director I ever worked with into my sole and was a real witch.  I don't blame anyone but myself. I am a stickler for detail and for being ready on time down to the final note.  I know there will always be changes and problems but most can be avoided if you really pay attention to the details.  I was not ready and I did not pay attention. Now my next question is why?

    It is simple.  I was tired and I did not care.  I really did not.  Was the show good?  You bet it was.  The first run had a few glitches, but the second was great. However I have become the kind of director and business owner that just does not care.   I will make sure the basics are covered but I was not going to go crazy and all out, I just can't do it any more. Half done and acceptable is good enough.  I have always been an over the top person.  That person is tired.  Right now I don't even care if I get to the top.  If I make it to the edge of the mountain it is okay.  I can't believe I think that or that I just wrote that.

    The kitchen is coming together.  I still have no sink, but I do have a stove and a fridge.  Every thing is on hold waiting for the counter tops.  So we will punt along until we can get that done.  I can start to put things away and clean a little.  We can do the dishes in the bath tub or out on the back porch for a while.  My plan after church is to come home and start to put liners in drawers and things in cupboards.  I am excited to start all the finishing details.  It will be a few weeks before it will be done.

     In the mean time I have plenty of sewing to do.  I have ignored the poor yard for weeks.  The house is such a wreck it is scary.  My chickens would be dead if it wasn't for my mam and hub's.  I just have not had enough hours in the day to get everything done and I am so tired.  That is changing.

     I am in the process of selling the studio.  I am so happy and relieved.  The new owner will take possession on September 1st.  So I have to get through the summer, and I will.  I am still going to have an association with the studio in that I will continue to teach Celtic and over see the advanced ballet program.  Which means I will no longer have the day to day running of the business.  I will only have to go done once a week and with a helper.  I will actually get paid plus the payment on the studio will pay off the debt.  I don't think the kids will notice a difference and I have full confidence in the person buying the business.

     It is time.  I have to get out before I get sloppy and I am starting to get really sloppy.  I do not like myself like this.   I don't want to do things half baked.  Now I can concentrate on the things that are really important.  My family, my mom, my sewing business, my health.  I am going to be very happy.

Have a beautiful and blessed Sabbath.

Kim