I am much better today. Signe' spent the night with me and that made me feel better. Lil sis came over and talked me off the ledge. I woke up to bloggers who commented and made me feel better. I just cannot imagine getting through all of this without you guys.
I really am trying to get myself in a more stable place, but it is just so hard. I feel like this whiney crying baby all the time. I am not used to myself being so needy. I don't like me. But here I am.
Aunty and I watched Sense and Sensibility last night. She had never seen it. Then she woke me this morning (I was able to sleep in) by sticking her head in the door and saying, "Madam the floor people are here." It was so funny.
The house is torn up again and I have a wedding dress to get out by tomorrow. I also have a wedding alteration for a second fitting due tomorrow, so I have a lot to do today, and I cannot put it off. Which is good for me, as I have become the queen of putting things off.
I am feeling very blessed today, and I hope I can maintain that feeling. Yesterday was the record for bad days since Joel passed. May I not top it.
I have three appointments coming in later this afternoon and I have to go to the bank and get cash for the floor guys.
Sissie just called and told me that her husband had finally made the decision to move here upon retirement. That will be in a little over a year. I am so excited. I love my brother-in-law and he is a great comfort to me. When you marry a twin, it is a package deal. Joel always knew that Kay was my other half, and she was included in all of our dealings. Actually, he always accepted Lil sis in the same way. He would do anything for her.
Well, I am off to get something done. Anything done.
Have a great and productive day. (I am going to try to)
Kim
