Wednesday, I am a mess

 I need one of these chairs only mine would be a sofa. I am a mess. In such a funk I forgot to blog yesterday.  Just sat in a fog. Reminded me of the days after Joel's death.

Too much death.  The anniversary of the babies, (which included many posts to my nephew/brother to keep him sane), then Hiedi, and thinking of Joel at Christmas it will be the three-year mark, just more than I can or want to handle. I am normally a happy funny person.  But I am not that right now. 

I am trying to figure out how to climb out. I did it before and I can do it again.

Sissie will be here, and I think Signe' is dropping off the kids for a few hours.  That will help. Sissie won't be thrilled about the kids but oh well she will manage.

I think Signe' (daughter) is getting a kidney infection.  She has the same symptoms that she had before.  So, I might run up there this evening and help her with some housework. 

My real problem is that I am sitting doing nothing physical and that is not good.

I did get to the doctor's office yesterday and signed a form and was able to get another month of meds. But when I called the insurance office their computers went down and now, I have to call and go through that again.... Managed to get to the pharmacy to pick up meds and have to go back for more. 

The highlight of the last two days is working with Dan on a very hard jig saw puzzle, which helps take my mind off me, myself and I. 

I do not like wallowing, I am not a wallower, or maybe I am?/??????

I would so like to post a funny Kim positive post, but it is not in me right now. Heavy sigh.

I am looking for my lost self, where is she? Somewhere eating chocolate?

Well, I have piecrust to roll out so I had better get busy.  Maybe that will help. Sissie will come back and see that I have done nothing and then.... I don't want to know

God is good

Kim