I think this is me. I am just sick of the tunnel. I want out. I am going to get out. I am determined. I will never be the same, but I am going to try and embrace a little more joy this next year. Sissie and I have plans within plans'. And we can make anything fun. Our sick and twisted humor helps.
I am up and dressed in Funeral clothing. The husband of one of my ministering sisters passed right before Christmas. He had been on hospice for a long while. When I went to deliver Christmas cookies a few days before he passed, I knew he would not last until Christmas, so informed the Relief Society President who then told the Bishop. I was right as I have done way too much hospice.
So, I made homemade rolls today and I am going to serve and clean up after the funeral. We feed the family after the graveyard service. My buddy and partner in crime is down with a bug, so if she does not show up at the funeral, I will check in on her and see what she needs. Then up to Signe's, as she needs help with the aftermath of Christmas. Not sure what I am getting myself into. But I am a mother that helps. HELPS!!!!!! I will bring Kelsa home with me tonight or stay the night depending on what I find.
I have a wedding dress that I need to add sleeves to, and I need to go find white crepe. The fitting is Thursday so I will be working on that New Years Day. You all know how I love to add sleeves to a strapless dress.... Not!
Spending New Years eve with my sister's and their spouses. I am a great 5th wheel.
Christmas joys:
1. I was selected by Billie Jo for one of her Amazon gift cards. I won something. SO excited to start the year with a credit.
2. Slugs called me on Hub's birthday just when I was breaking down. I get this whiney awful singing voice with a very bad rendition of Feliz Navidad in my ear. Of course, I knew right away who it was, as no one can quite screw up a song like the Slugs. (Who in actuality has a wonderful voice). But in order to imitate well you have to be able to sing. I laughed so hard. She always makes me laugh.
3. Christmas morning, I am blue but faking it well and Sis and I open these gift bags from Slugs, full of Sluggy dropping as we call them. SO many hysterical gifts and so many laughs I forgot all about sadness. The woman just has a touch. Also, makeup, I swear I have not bought makeup for years because of that woman.
Things to be grateful for, good friends.
God is good,
Kim
I have no advice except to be gentle with yourself. I'm convinced most of us need to do that. I won Billie Jo's give away too!! Yay us. Happy New Year Kim. I hope it's a better year for you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteWow we are winning friends! So fun. Happy New Year.
DeleteThat meme is spot on for me too. I'm not just in a funnel, but a whole on collapsed mine shaft. You have grandkids and children in happy lives. I'll add that to my list of things in life that just don't seem to be meant for me. I've decided God just doesn't want me to have nice things.
ReplyDeleteHello, lovely lady. I am soooo happy you were a winner! And I am always cheering you on. Hugs, my friend.
ReplyDeleteIt was such a great thing to wake up to, you have no idea, how something like that can cheer a person on!
DeleteEnjoy the good times and let go of the difficult (if you can)
ReplyDeleteI am pretty sure that you will not be the 5th wheel. Instead the 3 sisters are the ones driving the train!
Glad you had some laughs in the middle of the hard times.
From now on if someone buys a sleeveless dress and wants sleeves, suggest a bolero!
I did suggest a bolero and she said no! Damn. We played cards against humanity last night, which is a game I hate, and as usual I won. What does that tell you?
DeleteTells me there is a reason I really like you! Black hearts unite!
DeleteHugs and love, Kim. May the year ahead hold light and grace for you.
ReplyDeleteThank you, April, right back at you. You are Love and Grace all wrapped up in one great package.
DeleteMay 2025 be a beautiful year full of blessings.
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Thank you, I am praying this is true. Actually, I am very blessed just need to be more grateful.
DeleteMy wish for you is that there is more joy in the coming year.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
Thanks, Jackie you are one of my joys.
DeleteAwwww…that was so sweet of Sluggy. She is just the best! I’m sorry about your friends husband. It was very good of you to help in her time of loss.
ReplyDeleteI actually broke him out of a rest home about 6 months ago. They were giving her the run around. She is 87 and frail, and they said she could not care for him. He wanted to go home she wanted him home, but every time she would go to get him, they would talk her down after she had taken $10,000 in cash out of their life saving to keep him in said home. They were down to about $60,000. I went in and took the flak from the social worker who threatened to call the police, and I told her to go ahead. Took him home arranged for home care and hospice. But he died happy, and she is a whole lot richer.
DeleteLife would be nothing without good friends and "bad" sisters.
ReplyDeleteThis is so true. We need to embroider this on a pillow. Or start a t-shirt shop!
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