Friday, deflated balloon

     That is what I feel like.  I am a deflated balloon.  Yesterday was a myriad of errors.  I was a wreck.  Mom was surprisingly good.  I was not.

     Everything I touched yesterday was hard.  I did not have that much to do and I wanted everything done by today, so I could get ready to go to Missoula and organize my mind.  Well that was not to happen.  The day was full of phone calls and arranging and rearranging plans.

     My left wrist was stove badly and the right wrist was achy.  That did nothing for my mood or psyche.  In the back of my mind I kept thinking flare, flare. Because I was so sore, sewing was hard and I kept waiting for my wrist to loosen up.  So sewing a big heavy letter man coat was very difficult and I kept poking myself over and over again.  This did not lead to increasing my happiness factor. 

     There are two things that really send me off the deep end.  One is a loud unexpected noise or poking myself with a needle or pin.  Now I think this is strange because I have a very high pain tolerance.  But the unexpected just throws me.  The bride came for a Wedding dress that was done and it did fit. I had to re rip it out and basically start again. This does not happen very often, but it was a weird alteration as the bodice had boning going in diagonals and was hard to take in just in the bust area.  So I was so frustrated as I wanted everything done.

     So by the time hub's left for the pit I still had the wedding dress to complete and I had another bridesmaid dress.  I kept unthreading my needle all day and I jammed and broke the needle on my serger.  Anyone who sews with a serger knows how complicated they can be.  I just felt like everything I touched was a disaster.  I kept crying off and on for no reason.  Well I had reason but these were not the right reasons.

     I went last night over to my sister's and she colored my hair which was a mess. Then home with mom and finished the wedding dress.

     I feel better today, my  wrists are much better thank goodness. I have a couple of things to finish n the shop and lots of laundry and I need to clean the kitchen and the family room, go to the bank and just plain get organized.

     Mom and I will go to Hub's show tonight and then leave for Missoula in the morning.  I will come home Monday leaving mom with relatives( although I don't know if this is a good idea.) Then Lil sis will get home on Tuesday from her trip and she will drive to Missoula late Wednesday and the funeral is Thursday.

     I need to get the house payment paid and one other bill before I leave.  There is so much to do with packing for mom.

     I can do this, I can do this.

Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.

Kim