Wednesday, Sunshine and sorrow

 Gammi bought Kelsa Kay Anne a tin tea set for her Birthday, and we had a mini party last night. She got to pour everyone a cup of tea and we cut a mini cake and served it on her mini plates. She absolutely loved it!  I can see many tea parties in our future.  Although much like the Mad Hatter she continues to pour if you are not watching.  Papa bought her large crayons, like maybe she won't break those.  It was a joyful celebration and then shattered by a phone call from Hub's mom.

Hub's younger sister Heidie, who is my age has been diagnosed with stage three ovarian cancer.  It was an awful phone call. Lots of tears.  We are all so scared.  She has surgery next week, so they are not messing around. But I am telling you this kind of news really puts your BS factor at a 10.  Like really don't bother me with what is not important. Please I ask all of you that are willing, to pray for her.  I do believe in the power of prayer. Also pray for Hub's mom as she is really struggling with this as we all would.  I have cried so much in the last 24 hours, and I am not a crier. I just feel helpless, there is nothing I can do to fix this.  I am a fixer.

Just had a person call and she was whining.  She needed a jumpsuit hemmed by Friday, and I told her no.  Now could I have done it?  Sure, but it was the whining that did me in.  I just don't really care to take care of your problem that you put off.  Now I feel like this has caused me to be selfish.  I don't want to be selfish because I am scared and grieving. Kim's quandary.

Finished another chart yesterday.  So that is something to be happy about, but money means nothing right now.  Isn't it funny how having a tragedy in the making can just put these kinds of things in perspective?  I know life goes on, but what the hell....

I have Hubs back on a pretty strict Atkins diet as he has gained about 10 lbs. back from the 50 lbs., he lost two years ago.  I am really proud of how he has kept this weight off, but it has crept up a little bit.  I really have to be the one that plans what he eats, and I have to cook accordingly. If you look at a diagram of a man's anatomy (I know TMI) you will see where fat is stored in the pelvic region. Shrinking that even a little bit can help the surgeon get to the area that needs to be operated on with less mess to get through.  Does that make sense? 

I however do not need to lose weight, and this is hard for me as I have to not cook anything with carbs for me as it is too hard on him.  I just sneak things here and there.

So today I cooked up a package of link sausages while he was walking the dog and I made a large, tossed salad with tomatoes, and cukes from the garden. I also went out and picked a mess of green beans to fry up tonight along with a steak and salad for his dinner. I really just want to make up a batch of scones right now and eat them all myself.

Hubs is out cleaning the truck as we will take that to Twin falls.  We might be taking William with us so he can go and play with James and that will put me, the dog and William in the back seat and we need the room.  Mom and Hubs will be upfront from Nampa onto Twin.  I am glad we are picking up Mom as it will keep her distracted until the 7th when Heidie has her surgery.  Also, Hub's sister Lona and her husband are flying in on the 7th to stay with mom for 2 weeks and that will certainly help her get through the worst of this unknown part. I just don't want her alone with this, as I know how stressed I am, and I can't imagine what it would be like if it was one of my girls.

I get to see my youngest two quite often and I had a long talk last night with Braunwyn, who has been busy with the lab at the plant as the full-time lab technician is out with knee surgery. She has so much responsibility.  I also talked Jethelyn off the ledge yesterday and got to enjoy Signe' when she was here with Kelsa.  Just the thought that they could get sick makes me sick.  Okay I have to stop dwelling.

I am going to finish up the things I did not get done on the list yesterday as much as possible, as I would like a free day tomorrow to just clean the house and get ready to go.  I did get so much done yesterday and I have Levi thread on the machine so I can get to those three pairs of jeans right away.

1. hem a pair of jeans

2. hem two pairs of jeans

3. peg a pair of pants

4. fix a swimsuit (I had to go get black elastic)

5. do a pile of mending

6. do a pile of mending

7. complete another wedding dress is possible

8. call clients for pickup

9. clean up and keep shop organized.

10. alter 3 skirts ( 2 done)

I have a nail appointment at 4:30 and then Lil sis is going to color this hair of mine.  I wish I could be excited about these things, but all I see is time sitting doing nothing.  I am weird, right?

When we get to Jess's we are going to refinish the top of a Duncan Fife table that belonged to her mother-in-law.  It is a larger set than she had now, and I can't wait to see it. I guess a chair or two needs work also, but Hub's is good at that.  I think it is so neat that the kids get to reuse things that belonged to family.

Okay I need to get to work, I am going to set my timer and get busy.

Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.

Kim