Wednesday, August 31, 2022

Wednesday, Sunshine and sorrow

 Gammi bought Kelsa Kay Anne a tin tea set for her Birthday, and we had a mini party last night. She got to pour everyone a cup of tea and we cut a mini cake and served it on her mini plates. She absolutely loved it!  I can see many tea parties in our future.  Although much like the Mad Hatter she continues to pour if you are not watching.  Papa bought her large crayons, like maybe she won't break those.  It was a joyful celebration and then shattered by a phone call from Hub's mom.

Hub's younger sister Heidie, who is my age has been diagnosed with stage three ovarian cancer.  It was an awful phone call. Lots of tears.  We are all so scared.  She has surgery next week, so they are not messing around. But I am telling you this kind of news really puts your BS factor at a 10.  Like really don't bother me with what is not important. Please I ask all of you that are willing, to pray for her.  I do believe in the power of prayer. Also pray for Hub's mom as she is really struggling with this as we all would.  I have cried so much in the last 24 hours, and I am not a crier. I just feel helpless, there is nothing I can do to fix this.  I am a fixer.

Just had a person call and she was whining.  She needed a jumpsuit hemmed by Friday, and I told her no.  Now could I have done it?  Sure, but it was the whining that did me in.  I just don't really care to take care of your problem that you put off.  Now I feel like this has caused me to be selfish.  I don't want to be selfish because I am scared and grieving. Kim's quandary.

Finished another chart yesterday.  So that is something to be happy about, but money means nothing right now.  Isn't it funny how having a tragedy in the making can just put these kinds of things in perspective?  I know life goes on, but what the hell....

I have Hubs back on a pretty strict Atkins diet as he has gained about 10 lbs. back from the 50 lbs., he lost two years ago.  I am really proud of how he has kept this weight off, but it has crept up a little bit.  I really have to be the one that plans what he eats, and I have to cook accordingly. If you look at a diagram of a man's anatomy (I know TMI) you will see where fat is stored in the pelvic region. Shrinking that even a little bit can help the surgeon get to the area that needs to be operated on with less mess to get through.  Does that make sense? 

I however do not need to lose weight, and this is hard for me as I have to not cook anything with carbs for me as it is too hard on him.  I just sneak things here and there.

So today I cooked up a package of link sausages while he was walking the dog and I made a large, tossed salad with tomatoes, and cukes from the garden. I also went out and picked a mess of green beans to fry up tonight along with a steak and salad for his dinner. I really just want to make up a batch of scones right now and eat them all myself.

Hubs is out cleaning the truck as we will take that to Twin falls.  We might be taking William with us so he can go and play with James and that will put me, the dog and William in the back seat and we need the room.  Mom and Hubs will be upfront from Nampa onto Twin.  I am glad we are picking up Mom as it will keep her distracted until the 7th when Heidie has her surgery.  Also, Hub's sister Lona and her husband are flying in on the 7th to stay with mom for 2 weeks and that will certainly help her get through the worst of this unknown part. I just don't want her alone with this, as I know how stressed I am, and I can't imagine what it would be like if it was one of my girls.

I get to see my youngest two quite often and I had a long talk last night with Braunwyn, who has been busy with the lab at the plant as the full-time lab technician is out with knee surgery. She has so much responsibility.  I also talked Jethelyn off the ledge yesterday and got to enjoy Signe' when she was here with Kelsa.  Just the thought that they could get sick makes me sick.  Okay I have to stop dwelling.

I am going to finish up the things I did not get done on the list yesterday as much as possible, as I would like a free day tomorrow to just clean the house and get ready to go.  I did get so much done yesterday and I have Levi thread on the machine so I can get to those three pairs of jeans right away.

1. hem a pair of jeans

2. hem two pairs of jeans

3. peg a pair of pants

4. fix a swimsuit (I had to go get black elastic)

5. do a pile of mending

6. do a pile of mending

7. complete another wedding dress is possible

8. call clients for pickup

9. clean up and keep shop organized.

10. alter 3 skirts ( 2 done)

I have a nail appointment at 4:30 and then Lil sis is going to color this hair of mine.  I wish I could be excited about these things, but all I see is time sitting doing nothing.  I am weird, right?

When we get to Jess's we are going to refinish the top of a Duncan Fife table that belonged to her mother-in-law.  It is a larger set than she had now, and I can't wait to see it. I guess a chair or two needs work also, but Hub's is good at that.  I think it is so neat that the kids get to reuse things that belonged to family.

Okay I need to get to work, I am going to set my timer and get busy.

Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.



  1. That little one is SO stinking cute!!
    Prayers for you and your entire family. Things like this do show us what should be our priorities and Good for you telling that lady no. I despise whining.

    1. Thanks Lori, Just had a client call to hem a pair of ref pants and I said sure bring them in I will do them while you wait. You know why? NO WHINING.

  2. Prayers for your sister in law. If it is any consolation, the treatment advances in ovarian cancer have been great. My cousin’s wife was diagnosed with it, stage four I think, five years ago, in her 40’s, She is still alive and doing well. She is being treated at Duke University Hospital in North Carolina. Again, prayers for you and your husband and your sister in law and her mom. Cindy in the South

    1. Thank you so much for this info Cindy. That makes me feel so much better.

  3. Prayers for your sister in law. Hope you can enjoy the mini vacation over the holiday! Hilogene in Az

  4. Cute little girl. I agree that we need to stop letting drama people who create their own emergency invade our space. My prayers are for your SIL but while family.

  5. Prayers for your SIL. Prayers for healing and long life. Try to have a good time if you don't make it back on before leaving

  6. Kelsa is just too cute for words!! I am so sorry about your sister-in-law's diagnosis, and am sending prayers to the whole family. I do not think you are selfish at all for turning down that last minute sewing job. Not your responsibility to bail her out of her poor planning. You have enough on your plate, and at some point, you just need to take care of Kim.

    1. I know, but I have a problem with feeling guilty and I have to get over it.

  7. I am so sorry to hear of your SILs diagnosis. It sounds like her care is excellent and prompt! Surgeons and Oncologists with researchers are doing amazing treatment these days and stage 3 is at least not stage 4 and that is a big piece of hope. Prayers for her and hugs to all of you!!!!

    1. Self-Care is NOT self-ish. NO is a complete and acceptable sentence.

    2. Make a batch of muffins while hub is away on errands or at his volunteer activities and keep them in the shop. Have 1 each day for a morning snack. It really is OK for you to do that. If your weight is stable on recent eating, you cannot afford to cut the calories. You're a busy girl!

    Take good care.

    PS: you can call all of that "Nurse's Orders" ;-)

  8. You have my prayers for your family. You were not selfish in saying No.

    God bless.

  9. I would not let my children whine for what they wanted. (if they were sick, I understood) I told my daughter I would not listen if she whined when she wanted something. She asked what whining was, and I whined back to her. Her face registered such shock. When they would whine in a store, one look from me changed their voice. They had friends and I had friends who were grown and whined, drove me crazy. So, a woman whining about needing alterations on short notice would only annoy me and cause me to turn her down. YOU ARE NOT SELFISH!

    My mother had ovarian cancer and lived another twenty + years and died from something else. So, I know the grief you are all experiencing.

    I would bake something, hide it and eat it when he was away. Oh, someone said that. You could also go eat it in the car!

    1. Oh my sweet friend, I do sneak out and eat in the car a lot. I did the exact same thing to my kids when they whined I whined back.

  10. I'm so sorry for your sister in law's illness. I hope treatment works for her and it isn't too difficult. You are certainly not at all selfish! Be sure to take care of yourself.

  11. sending prayers for your SIL & family. Good on your for saying no, whiny people just are tiresome. hope all goes well

  12. Prayers... I couldn't fix Daughter's 4 cancer and it ate at me mentally ... Keep praying