Tuesday, May 23, 2023

Tuesday, Bluesday

 

I am having a hard day.  I just woke up and everything was normal, and then I realized I had to do this forever and I did not want to.

I don't want to pretend I am okay.  I don't want to read, or sew or play the piano. I want to run away from the pain and sorrow and I can't.

It is just so hard.


Kim

55 comments:

  1. There is absolutely nothing I can do to alleviate your pain…even though you’ve never met me, my prayers are with you. Ann

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  2. I am so sorry Kim. Virtual hugs. Cindy in the South

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  3. My eyes teared up as I read this.
    I wish I could do something,anything
    to lessen your suffering. I cannot.
    But I can pray for you.





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  4. Please know that a lot of us pray for you daily and the heavenly world hears you!!

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  5. I am so very sorry.
    We are thinking of you and praying for you.

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  6. I can't speak to losing a spouse, but I've had enough deaths in my life to know that it WILL get better. Hang in there!

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  7. Sending love to you. You could run, but it would not help the process any. You have good days, you have bad days - today is a bad day and that's ok. ❤️

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  8. Sending love and prayers your way. Hilogene in Az.

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  9. Kim, I am just so so heartbroken for all of you - You, Hilogene, and Sam - I often think, why not me? My husband is 10 years older. We just never know what life holds for us. I think of each of you every day & pray that the Lord provides you each with strength & courage to continue on - I cannot even begin to imagine your pain.

    Do you feel like any kind of grief counseling may help you? I mean talking with others who know exactly how you are feeling - as they, too, are walking in your shoes.

    Please be kind with yourself. Put yourself first - ALWAYS. At least for now. You need to be your priority. However/whatever you need, that's the priority.

    Sending you hugs & love across the miles.

    XOXO

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  10. ((((Kim))))) My heart hurts for you. I wish I could be there to help. Always in my prayers.

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  11. Sending kind thoughts and virtual hugs. My heart aches for you. SuzinWA

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  12. Sending you good vibes, Kim. You don't have to always have it together.

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  13. Dear Kim
    My husband Tony died 8 weeks ago. We were married for 32 years, together for 36
    We knew he was going to die, but nothing could prepare me for the pain, the grief and the pointlessness of life now.
    What am I / are we supposed to do with a life that continues when our life partner has left ? I have absolutely no answers. I feel very alone and I imagine you do to - even when surrounded by people . I just wanted to reach out - today my biggest achievement was that I remembered to clean my teeth- twice . Life has dealt us a rubbish set of cards with the deaths of our loved ones, and I for one think we should acknowledge the depth of that pain, that grief .. it’s ok to not be ok
    Siobhan x

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    1. Oh, Siobhan - my sympathies to you. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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    2. Jre that is one of the best ways to put it! It’s ok to not be ok. This is so painful. My husband died from cancer at 41 and we knew he was terminal and it was horrible. Such a sad loss. I have a wonderful life, wonderful family and mostly am happy but still have grief. It’s ok to not be ok sometimes still 26 years later.

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    3. Sorry was in reply to Siobhan

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    4. I am so sorry, you are fresh into this. It does get better, but then wham it hits you again.

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  14. A bad day is okay, be gentle with yourself. So sorry you are hurting.

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  15. I’m so sorry for you ❤️ I know the feeling of just wanting to be far away, somewhere else… but I can’t imagine that feeling coupled with the loss of your second half.. sending you much love and many hugs ❤️ Ricki

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  16. I can’t imagine how hard things can be and I know some days are much worse than others. Come to Alabama and I will actually surprise you with cookies at the door.
    Or go cruising
    Anne with the stupid phone that has no clue I am literally in the kitchen🖤🖤🖤

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    1. Sam wants to cruise so let's all get together and cruise!

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  17. I’m sending hugs and prayers.
    Debbie

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  18. You are in my thoughts. Hugs.

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  19. I am so sorry for your pain and despair. You don't deserve this pain. Do whatever it takes to help yourself.

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  20. Sometimes you just have to give in and feel the horrible feels. Hoping tomorrow is a better day. Hugs.

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  21. Sending you lots of love & good thoughts, friend. I'm so sorry today is so hard.

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  22. Give yourself permission to not be okay, to grieve, to shake your fist at the sky. Hugs and love.

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  23. I'm so sorry, Kim. I cannot imagine how hard it is to navigate without one's lifetime partner. You have my deepest sympathy. I hope tomorrow is better.

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  24. Not sure how to say this...but just do what feels right until those things feel right again.
    Hugs and Prayers.

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  25. Some days things just suck. No way around that feeling. I am sorry you are feeling so much pain. It takes time (trust me) - but that isn't what you want to hear. I just wish I could make it feel better. HUGE HUGS

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  26. It is OK to feel how you feel. Sending you gigantic hugs. Hope, it will be better tomorrow.

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