Tuesday,

     I have less sniffles this morning. Last night I was miserable.  Hub's and I have a funeral this morning and I had not planned  to go unless I felt better.

     I was in a real funk yesterday, just terribly down.  It might have been the cold.  It was supposed to warm up to at least 35 and it did not so no melting and I was so counting on the sun.  We did get Alice in Wonderland story boarded, but that just added to my anxiety.  I still have a Celtic show to choreograph so adding a new creative process under the influence of cold meds just seemed overwhelming.

     Lil Sis and I got together and did mom's meds.  Well what do you know?  She had run out of anxiety medication and was not taking it.  She also had not started her anti depressant.  She doesn't need those medications. She is so manipulative.  She will refuse to take meds that can help her feel better and she would rather make me miserable.  Last night I laid out her meds and 3 times went into her room and she had not taken them.  So at 1:30 last night I went in and woke her up and made her take all of them.  You would have thought I had killed her.  Standing over her force feeding her like a child.  She is gasping ad groaning.  But this is the way it will have to be I guess.

     Lil Sis was in a foul mood.  I think she is also blue about the weather and her kids just left.  She always wants everything done at her place.  She will rarely come here for any length of time.  Or so it feels like that.  She has much better control over mom than I do because she gets mean with her.  Mom would never have let me do her meds.  Sis wanted to do them at her house away from Mom.  Like that was going to happen.  When we were doing them mom had medications all over her room and counters.  I had to make about 5 trips downstairs to find everything.  Can you imagine me going back and forth to mom's house?  I always let Sis take over because I know Mom will allow this, but then she treats me like I am stupid and should have been able to do this myself.

     Mom and I threw together 3 Swedish almond logs last night.  I have to take 2 to the Funeral.  I will stop by the store for some ship cream and berries to put on them. She will go over to Sis's this evening while I teach.  I will pick up hamburger buns at the store for dinner as I have hamburgers out.

     I hope I can get these blues to leave, just so tired of feeling down.

Have a great and productive day!

Kim