Monday, I am going to be more positive.

     Hub's has enough left overs to eat for a few days.  I must get to the store for, milk, pam cooking spray, cucumbers, salad fixings before the night is through, and that should get us through the week.

     I do believe Hub's has a neurologist appointment on Thursday and I might have a specialist appointment on Friday.  I will have to investigate.

     Last week was not one I want to repeat.  Just too much.  I have to admit I have more on my plate than I want.  In fact I have help coming in this morning that tells you where I am at, I do need help and I am admitting it right now.  I am also going to ask my housekeeper to come back twice this week if she can.  Mom is coming next week and my sisters with her.  We will move her here.  I just need a deep clean done and I do not have time.  There, I am letting someone else do it, that won't kill me.  Asking for help is not a sin or a sign of failure and I need to learn and act on this.
 
     Saturday we had Nutcracker tryouts from 9-noon then I raced home and Hub's and I worked like dogs on the Swedish cultural room.  It took us both from 1 p.m. until about 9:30 p.m. to set up, run and dismantle the event.  Of course it was dismantled into the shop.  You could not move or sew or do anything in that shop.  We went to church on Sunday, I think I slept through most of the service, just so tired.  Then I came home and took a 4 hour nap.  I was up by 4:30 and I started to straighten the house.  It was then that I realized that I was going to ask for help this week with the house.  I just can't do it all.  Sorry to self, I can't.

     Hub's went to orchestra practice and I went into high gear.  Cleaned and mopped the kitchen, cut out another bridesmaid dress, mopped the kitchen floor, did three loads of laundry.  Ballet mistress came over and we cast the show she typed up the list and helped me clean out the shop.  Bless her little hide.  I sent her with at least 6 bridal slips and hoops skirts to the studio.  They have been borrowed over the course of the summer and have migrated back to the shop closet which keeps throwing them up every time I open it. We carried all the Swedish crap and put it in spare room down stairs to deal with later.  I am in a deal with later mode.  With the yard, the ironing, mom's crap.  That is just the way it is and will be for a while.  Let us get through this week and then we will reassess. 

     I have a big wedding for yet again one of my dancers.  I have her wedding dress, and four bridesmaid dresses.  Her dress is done, one bridesmaid is done.  I have another resdy for fitting , another cut out and ready to sew and one more to cut out, but I am short 5 yards of lace for the skirt so will cut out what I can and then get myself to Joanns.  There are a pile of other things that must go out today or tomorrow, I have many of them ripped and ready to sew. When my helper arrives we will be busy.

     I can do this, I will do this and I need help to do it.

Have a great and productive day.

Kim