Makes you wonder Huh?
I was a very busy girl yesterday and was able to get three wedding dress ready for fittings! Two have already been picked up!!!
The other one will be tried on tomorrow and then I only have two left. The last one is due out for Nov 7th but I will get that done before I leave for my sisters.
I have 6 bridesmaid dresses to get done along with the one wedding dress before I leave next week, but that is all doable.
There is light at the end of the tunnel! It is getting brighter and brighter.
There are still so many piles but those will get done as soon as the dresses are done.
I get Kelsa tonight and tomorrow.
Working on trying to be a little more joyful. I seem to go around in a haze of sadness. I don't think people really notice but I just operate on sad. I want to stop this.
There is joy and happiness everywhere. EVEN IN THE SMALLEST THINGS!
Work in progress here.
Kim
Virtual hugs. It is ok to be sad. You are still functioning in the best way you know how. Being single and responsible for all the bills by yourself sucks. Cindy in the South
ReplyDeleteI was driving to my condo yesterday afternoon and realized I was actually happy. Then proceeded to think that I shouldn’t be happy. I also realized it had been a long time since I had had that happy feeling., it was a weird series of thoughts. Of course I should be happy again. Of all the things that I know my husband would wish for me, it would be to be healthy and happy. The mind is a mysterious place isn’t it? Hilogene in Az
ReplyDeleteJust want to hug the stuffing out of you and hilogene.
ReplyDeleteI lost my nephew/godson to brain cancer in June. Then my mother died in August. Then a close family friend died in September. I have a lot of sad. But the happy is still sneaking in from time to time. Each day has its own challenges and rewards, and I don't feel bad about the sad or guilty about the happy. Eventually I think the happy will outweigh the sad, but I do wish it would happen soon. Hugs to you, Kim. xo
ReplyDeleteFirst - there aren't any rules and yes, you can write your own. Who cares who it offends. It is tough. You will get through this a day at a time. Baby steps. Joy is most definitely ever where if we just look!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou got a bunch done. Great job. Enjoy the littles!!!!!
"I don't think people really notice, but I just operate on sad." I get this. Trust me. But, I think people, at least, those who matter, don't want to broach the sadness for of making us even sadder. The rest, well, they don't matter. xoxo
ReplyDeleteSo, promise you a trip and you will sew? lol
ReplyDeleteLINDA PRACTICAL PARSIMONY ABOVE COMMENT.
DeleteI offended my own kids when my late husband died. Now they look back and see I had to put me first or they wouldn't have had anyone. Do what is best for you. When you think you shouldn't be happy think about what he would be telling you. Hubby told me he decided to go to the ER when he saw the look on my face. He went for me first and the fact he knew his body temp shouldn't have been 95. The EMT kicked in then.
ReplyDeleteThere are no rules for grieving. You have to do what works for you. Hugs my friend.
ReplyDeleteI give you a lot of credit on how you are handling your grief day to day. I believe grief is a very personal thing and no one can tell you how you should handle it. You are doing it your way and if that means taking days off to just be said, then that is what you do. You have great strength and you will go on.
ReplyDeleteJre my six year old granddaughter was at my house eating supper with her brothers and me yesterday and said” grandma is it sad to be lonely?” And I said “ yes it is”. She heard me mention I was lonely to another 16 year old GD in a drive through about an hour before, telling her to stop in and visit after I’d picked them up from school. She must have been mulling that over. But it is so true. I took one later to a sports practice and actually started crying a little. The parents of all the little boys were around and probably about the age my husband was when he died, 41 (cancer). I still have sad days 28 years later. But less often. I don’t want sound discouraging but this is grief. And I’m sad and envious of those other 70 year old couples in their retirement. This isn’t what I thought my older age would be.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, this is very hard.
DeleteMy ex dh left me 25 years ago and there are still times when I grieve not being married. That was my only marriage, and I did not date afterwards. When I got married, I got married for life. Every now and then sadness comes over me and I’m reminded of what I lost. Thankfully those days are few and far between. (((Hugs to both of you))).
Delete(((Kim))) Like Cheryl said, make you own rules. Hang in there, we love you!
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