Tuesday, Kim is cranky

 Woke up this morning with a throat full of knives.  Took some pain meds and it is better. I don't really need to feel punk right now.  Too much to do to get out of town.  I am going to need a vacation after I get ready to go on vacation.

Here I am trying really hard to be chipper.  It is not working. That bed is not made yet and it may not get there today as I might be crawling back into it after I complete my sewing tasks. By the way these are the pants that I bought at Talbots a few years ago, and I put them on and then could not get them off.  They would not slide back over my heels.  Hubs tried to help and pulled me down the hall trying to get them off my feet.  We finally had to cut them to get them off. But Hubs had a good laugh he kept pulling me all over the house, I could not get him to stop.

I was able to complete two wedding dresses yesterday and get a good start on the third before I ran out of oomph. I also ran to post office to stop our mail and pick up a mailer for a small gift. I also ran to paper co. and stopped paper and left a Christmas check for the carrier. I picked up a few more items for my nieces' Christmas box, as I realized I had purchased way more for the younger one than the older one. Ross had some really good deals. Then home to sew and we had leftover enchiladas for dinner.  I went to bed early.

I still need to hem a wedding dress and do three other alterations.  Just 3!  I am having a hard time convincing myself I can do this. Really, I am feeling okay right now, but I am just not motivated.

Trying to get enough meds to be gone almost a month has been very trying.  Every day it is a new story about how or why we cannot get them.  Insurance company's do not want to pay for more than one month at a time and we need more than a month.  Now some of my meds are controlled and that makes it even harder. I had one that was supposed to be filled before I left for Nampa and when I got back, they said that insurance had not approved it yet.  It had been 10 days what do they need?  Well, I found out I could just purchase the drug it was all about payment. (of course, rotten dirty bast%RDs )  How much $47.00 for 3 months.  I am already charge $10.00 a month so I paid the generous insurance portion of $17.00. Now I realize that I will run out of my most expensive med.  I can pay for the prescription to be shipped to Sissie's early, but it will be $4974.00.  Yeah, I just happen to have that in a piggy bank.  I called my doctor, and they are going to give me a sample to get me through.  Hubs has been having the same issues. We have been at the pharmacy every day and will return tomorrow. All I can do is try and stay in good humor.

All of Thanksgiving except blankets and pillows is stacked on the table in the dining room.  I might get up the energy to get it put back in its box.

Signe' threw away their Christmas tree last year that had seen better days.  She went to buy one and they were outrageous, so she called and asked to borrow our tree as we were not going to put it up.  Then she will buy one after the holiday when the go down in price.  I love that my daughter's sometimes think like me. I am not sure which shed Hubs has the tree stored in outside. He is back at the school again today. He came home after a 12-hour day last night and took some aspirin and went to bed. He took a lunch this morning as he only has an hour, and it is 20 minutes to the school, and 20 minutes back.

I went and mailed my brother's package so that is off the list of to do's. I also stopped to check on scripts and found out I have 5 Albertson's point that have to be used before I leave.  I will check and see if Signe' needs anything. I do not want to waste them.

I also ordered Starbucks gift cards with my Fetch points for my eldest daughter's mother-in-law.  Fetch would only allow me to order $10.00 cards.  Last year I could get a $25.00 one, so I ordered 3 and I am waiting for them to come through so I can print them off and get my last box mailed and then other than wrapping I am done with Christmas.

My neck and shoulders ache so does my bad hip.  Whenever I get feverish it just seems to sink into the joints in my body that are bad. I have some keloids in my abdomen from a major surgery I had as a little girl. There is scar tissue that formed in a couple of places.  As I grew the tissue moved.  One place is high on the right side of my upper abdomen just under my ribs.  The other is on the left side just above my hip.  So, when I get a fever, those spots burn and ache.  It was hell to be pregnant when I got really big as those keloids tore and were painful. In fact, if I gain too much weight on my stomach one of them will just throb constantly, and it makes me so miserable I just go on a diet.  But trust me it is a forced diet.  They cannot remove these as they would just come back and get bigger.  These jeans are rubbing the hip keloid, now I can change pants but what about the artificial big toe joint in my right foot.  I cannot remove that and as it is artificial why does it hurt? Where are my scissors?  I told you I was cranky, and you read this far so ......

Okay I can do this if I set my timer and try:

1. put patches on police uniform

2. put stripes on dress blues

3. shorten coat sleeves

4. hem wedding dress and bustle

5. clean cat box

6. put decorations away

7. pay as many bills as possible

8. go to bed

On your mark get set go!  This still leaves two dress one is easy the other is not and one more bridal dress before we go.  I feel like this year will never end.

Eldest daughter just called and said she had been assigned a shaken baby case.  She was waiting all day yesterday along with her colleagues for the hospital to call that they had taken the infant off life support. She said, there was not a dry eye in the building, even the big burly police officers were in tears. Having done these cases before, she said sometimes it is a blessing as the children have severe brain damage and coming from the homes most of them do, they do not get the care and the resources they need.  Luckily the 3 year old was taken away and will likely never go back. You just have to give these kinds of things over to God, as there is no way to explain this kind of behavior, or the hurt that it brings. I do not like my daughter's job. but she is good at it, and someone has to prosecute, to protect and innocent.

Have a great and productive day staying positive while you are in the negative.

Kim