Monday, July 25, 2011

Monday, I am losing it here.

     My mother has done something to her back or (hip).  I think it is her back.  She is flat in bed and so sick.  Too many pain meds and she is vomiting.  What a mess.  I really do not know what to do for her.  I just feel so bad.  She is like me in the fact that nothing gets her down (physically) and she is some what of a workaholic.  So having to lie still is hard for her.  I do believe it is the same muscle that I pull once in  a while.  I don't know what makes it go but it has you down for at least a week.  Stressful!
     My finances are a wreck.  I have no money and only $823.00 in savings.  I did not get to work much last week as Mother came on Wednesday.  She came to help but it has been slow going, now we are not going at all!  D#3 flew to D#1 to take care of the baby this week.  She will fly home next Sunday.  D#2 is heading to Boise to take yet another test for her license.  D#2 is on my radar right now, as she spends money she does not have and then expects me to bail her out.  I don't have it.  I am just so tired and I feel that I am not making any progress.  In fact I am falling behind.
     I have to realize it is like this every summer, but I don't like it.

Out My Window:  Picked many small yellow squash and zucchini.  Green beans are producing.  I found one large over grown zucchini and cut it up and threw it to the chickens. Have you ever had 6 birds turn their heads side ways and look at you out of one eye and say "You have got to be kidding?" see even chickens don't like over grown zucchini.

     Repertory rehearsal is over, we only have tech rehearsal left.  Our hurricane/tornado choreography went well.  I am just glad it is done.  I have a ton of work in the shop. Thank goodness as I need the money!  Say a prayer for me, I am a little fractured right now.

Have a great and productive day!



  1. So sorry to hear your mom isn't feeling well. I hope she is back on her feet very soon.

    You really need to let your daughters make their own mistakes and bail themselves out financially. They won't learn and they will be in a mess later on in thier lives. You are down $1300 covering for them and now you're stressed because you don't have any money but they are happy because they can always turn to mom. I know it's easy enough for me to say, I'm not a parent. I can't imagine how hard saying "no" to your child can be but from things I've witnessed it's the best thing for them. They have to learn to budget for expenses like testing and car repairs. That's life. We've all learned that hard lesson and it's what has lead us all to blogging as a way to help us get out of debt. Hope I don't hurt feelings with this. It's certainly not my intention. I just don't think it's fair for children to expect thier parents to be thier financial backup plan (not saying that is the case here, I have no idea).

    At any rate, hugs. Hope your stress goes away soon!

  2. No offense taken, I truly understand that, I think I just wished I could have had some help and support when I was their age. With just a little bit of support I could have gone to medical school, but absolutely no support from home. I don't want my children to have to struggle like I did, but I can see that I am creating a monster.

  3. You're a good mom. I can appreciate it must be a really hard place to be in. Maybe you can sit down and have a heart to heart with them and just explain this situation. You are trying to get ahead yourself and helping them is making things stressful especially because at least one of them is spending money she should be saving or paying you back with. Perhaps they will open their eyes and pull up their socks. :)

  4. I do the same for my kids.... Hello, my name is Lisa, and I am an enabler.

  5. Hello, my name is Rita, and I am an enabler too!

    You are not alone.